Debt to family members. If I pay them off, I’ll have a reason to keep living. If i decide to run or kill myself, then I’ll just be “a coward” and “selfish”.
But I’ve had bad luck my whole life. I hope I’ll be able to pay them off one day, but the idea of suicide has been crossing my mind daily. I’ve been unemployed since covid except for 1 job which lasted a month, and another job this December which may only last a month.
I am out of money. I just graduated university with a Bachelors Degree, and unlike most of my colleagues, I’ve been unable to get a job in the industry.
My school loans are coming to collect in January. My whole family is poor. I’m the realistic example of a poor person graduating with a degree. I’m stuck poor, and I will probably die poor.
I have applied for the income based payments, but I also have 2 other loans that were deemed “personal loans” which makes up the other half of all my loans.
I’m at over $100,000 USD in debt. If I don’t pay it, they’re going to come after my family members who cosigned, and they can’t afford to pay it either, so we’re all fucked if I don’t make payments.
BTW I was late on 1 payment and they slapped me with an additional $70 on my regular payment of $25. This is why I’ve thought about ending it. It won’t be my problem anymore and I won’t have to consider the consequences.
I’ll just be gone forever. But I also don’t want to do that to my family if I can help it.
Last time, I used: “Anybody need anything while I’m out?” and that went over well. May not make it through this surgery on Friday, so I turn to Lemmy for top-notch suggestions for my potential last words!
All it takes is 1 developer to add video support to lemmy, and make videos defederalized, then we could have different videos in different communities, we could have video-only communities, and those would be youtube-like.
Do you want it to show matches with people who are around your location, or anyone on the internet? If it’s the latter, maybe try starting a dating community, if there isn’t one already.
You could have people start a thread with the basic info: age, location, gender, sexuality, etc. Then what you’re looking for: age range, hookup or long term, etc.
The comments could be general questions like an AMA to get a better idea.
If someone likes your style, they can send OP a DM
I like a lot of the communities on that instance, but every once in a while I just get hit with a random wave of toxicity by them for no reason. For example, there was a post asking which communities from Reddit do you wish existed on Lemmy, and I answered honestly saying more car related communities as they are one of my...
Just making sure I’m in the right place. I cannot see any developed communities here so I’ve started wondering, what’s the real place everyone from Reddit has moved to? I’ve heard something about Discuit, but never tried it.
I keep saying my deadname in my head, this kinda started a bit after a family gathering where I heard my deadname a ton. This was in may and sometimes I will just say my deadname in my head and it feels wrong, it also kinda makes my real name feel a little wrong, even though I know it’s not and I like the name skylar
I’m not trans, and this is tangential, but can both names be true? (This is open to anyone that is open to inform me) I know that being trans means changing your gender identity, but do any trans folk use their dead name interchangeably?
I have a legal name, a former username, and my current username. I’ve had people call me by all 3 names, and to me, I don’t have a preference, it really depends what each person knows me as. I feel like if I changed my legal name to Oka, for example, and people still called me my current name, I wouldn’t care. My family already knows me by my current name, for example.
I’m not trying to minimize the choice of being transgender. I understand that deadnaming is generally used as an attack. I also understand, in my scenario, im not changing my identity, but I could have changed my personality. I still wondered if there were people who are fine with either name, even after transitioning.
None, it’s all 1 big network. Each instance is a different flavor of the same thing.
Tangent: I don’t understand why existing in an instance somehow makes a user any different than anyone else. Yet, I hear people saying things like “typical lemm.ml user” or crap about Hexbear users. It’s like people are taking the ideologies of the instance owners and labeling anyone in it to have the same ideologies. Where did this come from?
A few Dota players don’t represent the war crimes their president made. However, I want to believe Russians didn’t participate because of the war, and how even being a part of Russia makes them look bad right now.
Imagine if your leader started a war and all you wanted to do was play video games and live in peace. Individuals don’t represent their country’s views, but a group of people from the same country may.
Those players should join another team if at all possible.
I’m a conservative. I don’t mind the liberal stuff here. It’s good to learn the other side, but I don’t want a liberal echo chamber. I’d like to be more politically balanced in the fediverse. Is there any way I can do that?
I think a balance of liberal to conservative discussions can be good for the general consensus. However, it usually ends in a screaming match. Liberals want change. Conservatives don’t want change.
The best option for humanity is to have some change and not change things too quickly, but in order to reach that happy medium, we have to talk through it, apply critical thinking, and be able to listen and reflect when we receive new information.
At some point in this millenium, it became ubiquitous in games to ask for a button press before switching to the main menu and it has become a pet peeve off mine....
Jerboa crashes on lemmy.ml login (because of version compatibility)
I suggest printing an error instead.
Unable to login
Hi,...
FYI (files.ohai.social)
What keeps you going every day?
I've failed this November's challenge (lemmy.world)
It's gone (discuss.tchncs.de)
Every damn day [ADHDinos] (startrek.website)
RIP (i.postimg.cc)
What's an amusing thing to say before going under general anesthesia?
Last time, I used: “Anybody need anything while I’m out?” and that went over well. May not make it through this surgery on Friday, so I turn to Lemmy for top-notch suggestions for my potential last words!
Paradox how could you (lemmy.world)
silent rule (feddit.de)
18+ In Kamiansk, a truck driver killed a motorcyclist by driving into the oncoming lane (streamable.com)
Mirror: files.catbox.moe/dtt408.mp4...
[Open Critic] Cities: Skylines 2 Reviews (76 Top Critic Average 67% Critics Recommend) (opencritic.com)
Hey Google, go fuck yourself entirely (sh.itjust.works)
Least Shitty Version of Windows 8/10/11?
I’m in a rare bizarre situation and this is a desperate attempt to not buy any new hardware....
What is the Israel thing going on?
seems like the ‘safe’ public opinion is ‘we stand behind israel’ and the left opinion is palestinian support...
What is your favourite floating window manager?
Hi there, I’m looking at floating window mangers as an in-between of DEs and escaping configuration hell (somewhat) of tiling Window Managers....
This sh*t is bananas (lemmy.world)
British: One, Two, Three, Four
American: One, Two, Three, For
Would a federated dating site work well? What would it look like?
Basically title, every bit of online dating nowadays is either Match or Meta, and we’re all about breaking corporate chains right?...
Why is join lemmy promoting a pedophile instance? (sh.itjust.works)
In case anyone is wondering, it’s rqd2....
A little rant about lemmy.ml
I like a lot of the communities on that instance, but every once in a while I just get hit with a random wave of toxicity by them for no reason. For example, there was a post asking which communities from Reddit do you wish existed on Lemmy, and I answered honestly saying more car related communities as they are one of my...
This guy floated down into my neighborhood the other day (lemmy.world)
Apple uses hidden watermarks on iPhone 15 boxes to verify authenticity (appleinsider.com)
cyberpunk rule (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
i still have no communication skills and am as gay as ever. send help
What is the goal of FOSS?
I’m unbiased towards the subject. I’m genuinely curious about how long-term FOSS ideology would work....
Be the change you want to see! (thetreasurechest.buckodr.ink)
Where are all of the reddit refugees these days?
Just making sure I’m in the right place. I cannot see any developed communities here so I’ve started wondering, what’s the real place everyone from Reddit has moved to? I’ve heard something about Discuit, but never tried it.
Does anyone have a habbit of deadnaming themselves in their head
I keep saying my deadname in my head, this kinda started a bit after a family gathering where I heard my deadname a ton. This was in may and sometimes I will just say my deadname in my head and it feels wrong, it also kinda makes my real name feel a little wrong, even though I know it’s not and I like the name skylar
c/technology mods are inactive
It seems all the mods for [email protected] are inactive, and are not making any effort to combat spam....
What are your favorite Lemmy instances?
Another Starfield Post (lemmy.ml)
The Ukainian team hast dropped out of this year's International Esports Federation DotA 2 World Championship in protest against the league's decision to lift it's ban on Russian players (lemmy.ca)
https://dota2.ru/news/34697-sbornaa-ukrainy-snalas-s-cempionata-mira-po-dota-2-ot-iesf/
Do you believe in God?
kid cuisine (lemmy.ml)
18+ lol (reddthat.com)
What thing are you exponentially more experienced in than the average person?
What is the best skill you possess that makes you stand above the average person?
Let this be stuck in your head for the next week (startrek.website)
what's the deal with a bunch of lemmy.world subs being abandoned by its mods and founders?
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Stranger Things' Noah Schnapp explains how Will's sexuality helped him come out as gay (www.digitalspy.com)
Is there a more politically conservative part of the fediverse?
I’m a conservative. I don’t mind the liberal stuff here. It’s good to learn the other side, but I don’t want a liberal echo chamber. I’d like to be more politically balanced in the fediverse. Is there any way I can do that?
I'm trying to poop here man, come on (files.catbox.moe)
Do people in the UK call the old bearded rock band "Zed Zed Top"?
Or the rap artist “Jay-Zed”?
I don't want to "Press any key to continue" to the main menu
At some point in this millenium, it became ubiquitous in games to ask for a button press before switching to the main menu and it has become a pet peeve off mine....
🎶 A small town, rural noun, simple adjective 🎶 (lemmy.world)