DivergentDumpsterPhoenix, to actuallyadhd
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do you experience imposter syndrome?

I have been so good at hiding parts of myself over the years that I now doubt they are there.

@actuallyautistic @autisticadvocacy @actuallyadhd

johnnyprofane1, to actuallyadhd
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Neurodivergent Kiss: Autistic Fairytale… or Fabulous Marriage?

Folks ask about my #neurodivergent marriage. Umm… over and over. Like… "Is that even possible?"

@actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd #ActuallyAutistid #AuDHD #AutisticJoy #AutisticLove #Autistic
http://autisticaf.me/2023/08/18/neurodivergent-kiss-autistic-fairytale-or-fabulous-marriage/

BZBrainz, to bookstodon
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Late-Identified AuDHD: A Starter Workbook—a tool to begin gathering information together. (Large-Print pending review!! 🤩)

✅ Do you suspect you have spectrum disorder (ASD) and attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD)?
✅ Are you late-diagnosed with ( + )?
✅ Are you still trying to identify your traits and describe your experiences to access support?
➡️ https://books2read.com/audhd
@bookstodon
@Adhdinos
@actuallyautistic

dan, to random

post?
I'm Dan.
I don't generally do social media.
And yet here I am.
Trying out this Fedi thing,
excited to have a space where I can just be myself.

I'm recently self diagnosed , , , & officially (39yo, better late than never!)

It's been so enlightening to finally start learning and embracing who I really am.

Meeting other autistic people has been amazing and is helping me feel less alone.

So um hi 🙂

PsychTink,

@dan @autisticadvocacy @audhd
Welcome!! Great introduction!

You may also like this server. tohttps://discord.gg/CfqK8ZmZ

theautisticcoach, to actuallyautistic
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Being is a unique experience in the context of the neurodivergent world It gives us special abilities to experience the world, but comes with its own challenges as well

Come join me & fellow comrades for my new workshop!

@actuallyautistic

jo, to mtf in complicated feelings

@Blahaj_Blast

My therapist also reminds me, it’s a long process, you don’t just wake up one day with all the answers. But that doesn’t stop the autistic parts of my brain from being like “NO I NEED ANSWERS NOW! How am I supposed to walk a path I don’t know without answers?” but that’s how life is anyway.

Damn, girl. That's definitely a mood I know too well, but yeah it's an ass-whipping that way - which is ok if that's your thing lol

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adelinej,
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@JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic For me I can hyper focus on things even if it’s not a special interest as much as it’s something that I like. But I’m it’s probably play a part in it.

BZBrainz, to actuallyautistic
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@audhd @Adhdinos @actuallyautistic

COMING SOON!

The large print version of Late-Identified : A Starter Workbook is almost done! This is a starter workbook for those with late-identified and .
I aim to keep the cost of paperbacks the same for equitable access. This version should be live by 8/18/2023!

💫 https://books2read.com/audhd

johnnyprofane1, to actuallyautistic
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I feel a post coming on... sometimes sharing my process helps...

"Every Clock Is Handgun Pointed at My Head"

Blv it or not... these are the seeds I planted in my notebook:

"Every clock is a handgun pointed at my head

How much does a dream weigh? Enough to slump shoulders... break backs. Strangely? Even more as they die

Dream dreamed dreamt dread

T -10 9 8 7 6... Countdown to anxiety

Doctor forcing labor

Shrieking at the factory door

Time to next paycheck measuring the distance to starvation

Clock tower time to disaster

Einstein measured time as distance between events. I don't give a shit about events. Just the quality of the travel between them...

You don't need a book to know when the sun rises

when to eat

when to sleep

when to pick berries on the fence row

Bible

Landmines of duty waiting to go off

Every tick is an unspoken command

Sale

Punch clock

Daily planner

Best seller"

Trust me this is going somewhere... Let's see where we end up.


@actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd

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btaroli,
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btaroli,
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@admin I tend to disagree. We read the room. We just don’t touch the same songs.

@JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic

btaroli,
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@admin On a philosophical note, we sense the same room. How we perceive it is quite different. The larger point allistics may miss is that, despite their normative socialized interpretation, even THEY don’t perceive the room the same way. They just have more of a shared social expectation of what the room should be. Ultimately, “read the room” is less about “this is how I see the room” and more about ableism and shaming.

@dweebish @JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic

PatternChaser,
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@JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic

Yes, as others have said, we see the room quite clearly, but we think and observe differently, so the impressions we gather are not those an NT would gather.

And because we don't see what they see, they conclude we see nothing at all.

NT-ism is a sad and disabling condition. 😥

CatHat, to random
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I get really sick of newly "hatched" auts.

REALLY sick of hearing about how you have the experience to make value judgements about the experience of being diagnosed as a child.

I get that the diagnosis is a revelation.
And it is. I agree .
But i want to puke remembering how that "privilege" was used to justify telling kids "IF you manage to prove that you are able to emulate a person you can be awarded honorary adult status"

Otherwise you count as something between a child and an animal

btaroli, (edited )
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@CatHat This is curious. I don’t feel because I “successfully” all these decades. I can’t know if it would have been better had I been as a kid. I never got into real trouble, but there are many parts of my youth I don’t care to remember. It was awful. Each time I peeled back the , thinking that I knew why, there was more. Now I know was underneath it all. Not alone but there. @actuallyautistic

btaroli,
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@CatHat The closest I ever got to detection was my 5th grade . She warned my mom about . No follow up.

My son’s at age 5 has brought mixed results so far. At age 10 I finally feel like we’re on solid ground. But i thought we were good at age 8 too! I still fear we’re one well-wisher “professional” away from a major setback. I will rejoice when he can shake off adult “support.” @actuallyautistic

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johnnyprofane1, to actuallyautistic
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"Calm down."
🧵

G-d, I hate those words. Always have.

#AutisticParent #AutisticMom #AutisticDad
#AutisticAwareness #AutisticAcceptance
#Autism #ADHD #AuDHD #AutisticAdults #AutisticAlly
#AutisticElder #ActuallyAutistic @actuallyautistic
@actuallyadhd

I've heard them pretty much every day of my long life.

Delivered in soothing tones...
Helpful tones...
Authoritative...
Anxious...
Angry...
Sometimes accompanied by a slap.

From Parents. Teachers. Priests. Playmates. Lovers. Doctors. Therapists... Each one demanding one thing of me.

👉Control over THEIR own feelings.

By demanding... control of mine.

WHO needs control when I'm sad?
Angry?
Intense?
Passionate?
Proud?
Informative...
Joyful...
or...
Suicidal?

You folks do.

I'm feeling what I'm feeling. And expressing it in ways that are not only the most natural to me... but also the most appropriate...

To the neurology I was born with.

You may not like it.
In the park.
In the grocery store.
In front of strangers.
In front of Aunt Mary.
In 2nd grade.
👇👇👇

With my office door open.
In your waiting room.
On our 3rd date.
In your house...
In your life.

There's a whole wing of autism deniers masquerading as scholars who say we autistics lack a "theory of mind."

Like adult autistics don't deal with typical human minds
👉 24 / 7 / 365.25 ... 👈

YOUR problem with MY behavior is easier to understand than your whole "theory of mind," "behavioral analysis" crap.

I don't get how YOU think or feel.
You don't get how * I * think or feel...
And we rub each other the wrong way. Just like cats and dogs.

👉THIS cat has a theory of your mind. It's simple.

You don't acknowledge what you think or feel.
Not in public.
Lots of times not even to yourself.

S'why y'all drive me crazy.

Why did parents, teachers, "helping" pros, "friends" tell me to calm down?

Not to soothe my distress. To soothe THEIR distress.

👉 Shame?
Not fun to feel ashamed... of your child.

👉 Fear?
Scary when everybody's looking at you.
And you think it's not even your fault.

👉 Anger?
It's frustrating... when you have no control.
Like... when I don't do what you want me to. Fast enuff.

👉 Soothing?
Of course, YOU need soothing...

Every time someone else's pain...
Or bad luck...
Or death...
Reminds you of YOUR danger.

🚨 "Calm down." 🚨

There is never a time that a command...
implying that an autistic person in distress is doing "something wrong"...
helps.

Doesn't matter our age... education... profession... wealth.

And since your "helpful advice" almost certainly inflames their pain... literally adding fuel to the fire in our hearts, minds, and bodies...

You'll NEVER get the outcome you demand... soothing.

You'll just add one more brick to the prison wall of our trauma.

#AskingAutistics

ScottSoCal, to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic

Autism can be messed up.
Medical drama for the last month, and the ER doctor filed a report with the DMV that got my license suspended, pending medical review. Many, many doctor appointments later, with multiple specialists, and today I got the letter that my license is now reinstated.
For a month I've been stressing about not being able to drive or go into the office. Now I'm stressing about going back into the office.

btaroli,
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@ScottSoCal The harm caused by erroneous diagnosis should bounce back to them. Here lose a month of your compensation for screwing around with people’s lives. Just saying… @actuallyautistic

BZBrainz, to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic @audhd
Week two into my move and new job. Rumbling has been a difficult to manage, but I’ve known for a long time that good and bad experiences can lead to rumbling and meltdowns or shutdowns. I’m hopeful for a time soon when the newness wears off a bit and routine can shoulder some of the burden of stimulation.

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PatternChaser,
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@benjamincox @ScruffyDux @actuallyautistic

😂 I'm (, actually). We don't use 𝖎𝖒𝖕𝖑𝖎𝖈𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓, like NTs. We say (only) what we mean, and mean (only) what we say. 😀

PatternChaser,
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@benjamincox @Claire @axnxcamr @ScruffyDux @actuallyautistic

Not to worry. We all do that ! 😉

PatternChaser,
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@strypey @Claire @dbc3 @UnknownOutrider @benjamincox @ScruffyDux @actuallyautistic

I take your point about 2 second interruptions. I was thinking only that most interruptions last longer than 2 sec. Even a 'brief' interruption lasts maybe 2 minutes or so, and that's all I was getting at.

I'm , and yes, even 2 seconds can often collapse my mental 'Cathedral'! 😉

PatternChaser,
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@PatrickWirth @UnknownOutrider @Claire @benjamincox @ScruffyDux @actuallyautistic

If we put our thoughts in writing, we have more time to examine our words, to try to anticipate the way(s) NTs could misunderstand our intended meaning. It's still v. hard, though... Like , I suppose?

PatternChaser,
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@doggle @Claire @PatrickWirth @UnknownOutrider @benjamincox @ScruffyDux @actuallyautistic

Learning to do what? Communicate with NTs? Avoid NT misunderstandings? We all do that, so maybe I've missed your point?

(diagnosed age 63!).

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