hello Beehaw, it’s a sleepy morning–and i did not get very much sleep. luckily i have no social priorities so this is not a big deal. currently reading a number of books after completely crashing out of doing that for the entire month of June. i think i can get about 3 in before the end of the month, we’ll see
There has been a lil bad and a decent amount of good this week so far
My job’s treating us poorly even though we’re making the company massive profits in the millions. I would like to leave but I think I’ve been in this dead end position too long. I might need to re skill but I have no idea what I would like/what would pay enough.
The weekend was busy but a lot of fun. Got to go to my first anime convention. Only went for one day when I could have easily gone for the whole weekend. Next year I’ll do that. It was nice because I haven’t gone to any events like that for probably about 5 years or so. Usually I’m not tired at night but both Saturday and Sunday night I fell asleep right away which was kind of nice for a change.
I don’t know what kind of jobs your in and how your job market is right now, but it never hurts to take a look at your resume and maybe look around for other jobs while still in the “comfort” of a paying job.
Glad to hear you visited a social gathering and enjoyed it. I’ve had some social experiences recently which have given me some positivity in my life and I am glad to see you have too.
Do you watch anime too, by chance? If so, may I ask which one(s)?
Currently things are a bit iffy for me. I originally went to school for web development, but from what I have seen it seems like people want a “unicorn developer” that can do everything.
I’ve still sent my resume out to a few places where I thought I could still fit or make it work but I haven’t gotten any replies back yet. I’m currently in a role that doesn’t use those skills but is much more teaching focused. I provide technical support with a program/tool that was made by the company I work for. So that knowledge can kind of carry over to other areas, but it’s more soft skills if that makes sense.
But yeah it was a very mentally refreshing experience to go to a convention! I’ve watched a variety of things, probably too many to list. But some of my Favorites have been Soul Eater, Air Gear, Naruto, Steins Gate, JoJo’s Bizarre adventure, all of Studio Ghibli’s catalogue
I recently heard a radio feature about it, they have problems with it being overrun by tourists, people not being prepared (it’s a mountain, not a walk in the park) and leaving their trash everywhere +_+ So please take care! And enjoy it must be an amazing trip ^^
Actually not as many people as I expected when I went. I know it’s not a walk in the park haha I been living in Japan for 4 years and hiker many other mountains just never had the time to go to Fuji because it’s pretty far from me where I am located in Japan. The hike itself was a lot easier than I expected and there’s so so so many rests stop with drinks and foods that even people not in shape could probably hike it. Definitely enjoyed every bit of it and wish I could go do it again.
That’s interesting, the article I read made it sound like it was a serious hike (but I guess “easy” and “hard” will mean very different things to different people). I’m glad you enjoyed it, it seems like a really cool thing to do ^__^
Things are much calmer than last week workwise and I have a couple of days off this week thankfully. Saw the first of a few Edinburgh previews last night which was great (was in a damp side room of a pub so felt like being at the fringe already). Seeing an outdoor Shakespeare play on Friday so hoping it stops raining before then!
To cap off one of my strangest days in recent memory, I just got a call asking if I can go to England all next week to accompany a choir tour. Nothing’s confirmed yet, and I’d have to pull some major strings to get out of my obligations here. However, I’d really love to go.
Unfortunately, we’re moving a few days after I’d get back, so I’d pretty much dump all the packing on my partner. She says I should go regardless, but I definitely don’t feel great about that.
I also just finished up a take-home interview project for a part-time software development job. I’ve been trying to break back into that world for some time now, so I’m very excited about the opportunity.
Then you should go. No doubt there have been or will be situations where you carry a heavier share of the load between you to support her needs. Equal partnership does not require things to be exactly 50/50 at all times in order to be fair and for both partners to feel supported. It’s also important to respect your partner’s own autonomous ability to make decisions about what they want for themselves and to express those choices. If they tell you they want to support you in some way that is important to you, you should take them at their word.
Well said and agreed. It felt awkward because next week was supposed to be a lighter period for me at work after some sustained intensity, while she’s ramping up for a big project due at the end of the month. So all along, we’d planned for me to shoulder more of the packing and last minute planning. I just wanted to make sure that she knew that I appreciated how much extra work I was passing on to her, and to express that I needed to find ways to make it up to her.
However, late last night I found out that the choir’s original plan worked out and they don’t need me to go at all. So…yeah.
My mother got put back on her disability benefits and now I’m hunting down apartments for us to live in to get out of a bad housing situation that we were stuck in because it was cheap and we only had one income.
I’m actually having a really sad week. My mother had a heart attack on Saturday evening (really unexpected, no history, they still don’t know why) and collapsed. She lost oxygen to her brain for about 10 minutes. I’m trying to help my family and my dad through this time and I am finding anecdotes about people recovering (even if hard fought) but it’s hard because she is still not really responding to verbal communications. I remain hopeful that it will get better but can’t help the intrusive thoughts that the wonderful woman who raised me may be gone.
If anyone has been in a situation similar and has advice, I am all ears!
I apologize for the downer, and hope everyone else is doing better than I am.
Not exactly the same but my grandmother had a stroke that left her unable to care for herself although mostly mentally intact. She was miserable and never adjusted. It was hell, and everyone was relieved when she died. I know that sounds horrible but there was nothing we could do to ease her suffering.
All I can really say is that brain injuries are awful, even if things turn out as well as they can the road there is going to be hell. Remember to take care of yourself, you’ll have days of grief and anger when you think thoughts you’re not proud of. Do not judge yourself too harshly, or your family.
You will need time and space to grieve and it’s going to be very hard to get that at the moment. Try to make space when you can, and understand that everyone else needs that too. You will need support, your friends and extended family might avoid bring your mum up believing that it spares you suffering to avoid thinking about the situation. You might need to be quite explicit with your needs around emotional support, conversations, venting, and advice.
I am sorry, my heart goes out to you. Generally the prognosis for brain injuries isn’t good, and it’s probably best to set expectations around that to avoid self blame and another round of grief if things don’t improve. That said stimulation is important for brain healing, particularly early on. Try to chatter, ask questions etc even though you might not get a response. Play music she likes, try to do things around her/in view. Try physical therapy stuff if she’s mobile. Even gentle movement of limbs by another person can help prompt re-connection of neural pathways.
I’m so sorry to hear that. My apologies, I can’t say I have any specific advice from a place of experience. I hope you have a strong support network outside of your immediate family that you can lean on at the moment, it’s hard to find space for yourself and your own emotions when you’re also trying to support other people. I wish you and your family all the best x
Back in April, I took a reading challenge that I had found online to read for at least thirty minutes per day, because I really should read more often. I failed about twenty days in, doing the bare minimum. What have I become?
I have to give a presentation soon and I am not looking forward to it.
Even worse, today I found the bread and peaches I was gonna eat this week are moldy!! T_T The bread is over a week old so maybe it makes sense, but the peaches I just bought the other day!! It’s annoying. But hopefully things will turn around from here.
I created my own Lemmy instance for my small town!
I cannot get anyone to use it at all! I tried to post about it on the local Facebook group and I got banned!
To be fair, I created it to take people out of the toxic shit pile, but the page is called “uncensored” which is a little hypocritical if you ask me.
I think people are weary that it’s a “scam” somehow. Even though there are hundreds of fake accounts on the FB group and the page owner is an ultra right wing nutjob and allows tons of troll accounts to run wild.
I have now created my own Facebook group in hopes to draw away members, I will then subtly introduce my Lemmy instance to them.
He was. One of the better dogs I’ve ever owned. Was in effect a therapy dog for our other pup that struggles with people. And always more tolerant than he should have been with the kids.
It was a long time coming. He had tumors in his throat and nose and eventually his quality of life suffered too much. Just sucks.
He’s also the first death that hit my youngins hard. My 5 year old has struggled the most. Has some disturbing anecdotes since. Having to choke back your own thoughts/processing to explain it to kids is hard. Harder than I thought
Eh kinda shitty, one of my main medications (Subutex) dropped dosage again this week and it suddenly felt like I’ve been hit with a brick, emotionally speaking at least, bored as hell, tired, no real desire to eat or do anything, etc. I’m close to being done with this medication but the last parts like getting off it at the very end are the hardest.
How are you doing overall? Are you doing well? I don’t mean to assume the reason for using Subutex (doctors prescribe off-label for lots of shit and I’m not a doctor) but it’s one of those things where I’ve had someone close going through similar circumstances.
Doing OK in general except for the start of this week, no problem with assuming, you’re likely right anyway if you’re thinking about opiate addiction. Cravings suck but are bareable for now at least.
I’m glad to hear it, well not glad you have to go through this but glad to hear to you’re doing okay. I hope you don’t have too hard of a time and are able to stick with it.
On the one hand I’ve gotten a lot of reading time and have been enjoying my current book (Children of Time) much more than the last book I tried (The Dark Forest [yeah, I know it’s a modern classic of the genre, I just really didn’t like the translation]). On the other, I was with my wife all day in the ER because she developed a kidney infection. Everyone’s fine now though so… pretty mixed so far?
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