You just won’t lie down. Even closing your eyes, you can’t let it go, Surrounded inside. Leave it alone. You don’t get it back Undoing the scenes you can’t explain, Whatever you dream That you’ve buried away. It seems like you’re there as someone removed And left in their place with nothing to do. Bound to the switch. Railing again at the thought of the fight For well-earned dissent Undeserved at the time. As you’ve been shown, the motion has gone A shade of the night, only leading you on.
It’s a song that speaks to your flavour of depression. Makes you feel like someone feels the exact same way you do. That in turn makes you feel sane. Like you’re heard. Even understood.
Over time, songs (or movies or other things) can become a ritual - you feel awful, listen to the song, eventually you come out the other side as the depressive episode fades. Then the next time it happens you associate the song with your recovery. So over time it becomes What You Do when you Feel That Way.
What song would you recommend to someone who has done things she regrets when she had the opportunity to have something good and lives with the still-ongoing snowball effect that she is so used to seeing as karmic that she doesn’t typically bring up any of the issues?
Priest is an electronic music project originally formed by ex-members of the hugely popular band Ghost. I’d call this Darkwave, but the label doesn’t matter, it’s depeche mode-y and don’t let the gimp mask put you off, I believe the song is very sincere.
<span style="color:#323232;">I can't stop, it's too late, it pours out, it's my fate
</span><span style="color:#323232;">My legacy in black
</span><span style="color:#323232;">Looking in to my eyes, see the things i despise
</span><span style="color:#323232;">My soul is tainted black
</span><span style="color:#323232;">
</span><span style="color:#323232;">I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
</span><span style="color:#323232;">I'm free of all the lunacy
</span><span style="color:#323232;">I never want it back, my history in black
</span><span style="color:#323232;">
</span><span style="color:#323232;">Silent screams longing voice, violent dreams, ringing noise
</span><span style="color:#323232;">My memory is black
</span><span style="color:#323232;">It's not a mask, it's my skin
</span><span style="color:#323232;">Please don't ask where i've been
</span><span style="color:#323232;">My heart is painted black
</span><span style="color:#323232;">
</span><span style="color:#323232;">I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
</span><span style="color:#323232;">I'm free of all the lunacy
</span><span style="color:#323232;">I'm never want it back, my history in black
</span><span style="color:#323232;">
</span><span style="color:#323232;">I escaped from the cage inside
</span><span style="color:#323232;">
</span><span style="color:#323232;">I traveled with the enemy, i thought it was my destiny
</span><span style="color:#323232;">I'm free of all the lunacy
</span><span style="color:#323232;">I never want it back, my history in black
</span><span style="color:#323232;">My history in black
</span>
When I’m happy, I try not to listen to sad music because it brings the mood down. But when you’re already feeling like shit, sad music helps you feel even worse. LPT
I’m a big music snob, and I’m in my forties, but Decompression Period by Papa Roach hit me really hard the first time I heard it, and it’s always one I go back to. I’ve never had a bad breakup or anything, but it really captures the feeling for me.
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