theendismeh

18+ SHODAN, 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Looks like another autism researcher is facing criticism https://www.thetransmitter.org/spectrum/work-of-autism-researcher-questioned-again/ Interestingly it mentions a paper called "Effects of Low-Level Laser Therapy in Autism Spectrum Disorder" which reading through just strikes me as thoroughly unethical research that should've never been approved. Autism research proves it is in crisis, again. @actuallyautistic

aspiedan, 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

@actuallyautistic #aspergers #autism As Christmas holidays approach, I am worried about several things.

1. I have a busy and stressful job, but one in which I have a lot of control over things, a lot of routine, and an office I can hide in. I am worried about the drastic change in routine (or loss of it) and loss of control.

2. I love my wife, and kids to the moon and back, but they are unpredictable, and I end up apologising 24/7, and feeling guilty for being rubbish. Also they feel pressure to be happy knowing we don't get time together, which adds to tension and stress.

3. My family (parents and extended family) are not close, but my wifes are, and Christmas means gatherings, party games etc. And I feel guilty about avoiding them.

4. I feel obligued to be a festive jolly person to everyone as I do like Christmas and do not want to appear rude.

I have never really spoken about this till now, but I find it the hardest part of my year, and it takes so much energy to mask all the time. What I would love would be to hide away from everything, but there is so much expectation etc.

Sorry for the long rant but thanks for being a safe space to get this out!
:infinity_rainbow: :octo_sad: :blobcatpensive:

Tim_McTuffty, 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 43 Monday 11/12/23

TL:DR My time management sucks ! ; I knew the positive streak was too good to last ! ;I’m totally focused . . “oh look , squirrel!’

Busy day today.

Up at the usual time, but mixed chatting with my bestie with a little NMS to try & get the Expedition moved fwd.
I’d like to say that I jumped to the whole ASD stuff after breakfast, but I’m back to being well enough for the game addiction to be present so lost another hour to that 🙄🤦‍♂️

I spent the morning fighting with the scanner to persuade it to scan the ASD Informant reports in & then collate them into the right order , came close to just chucking the thing out the window !

Spent a couple or 3 hours this afternoon playing NMS co-op , enjoyed it enormously , although did feel guilty that I had failed on concentrating on the ASD stuff left to do!

Late afternoon into this evening was spent summarising up my educational & employment history, boy have I done a lot of stuff ! I could have done without being reminded that 2012 was the last year I was able to work due to a massive MH breakdown.

A call with the elder of my sisters was a nice way to end the day.

Final Thoughts:

I rediscovered why I don’t work anymore, having fought with a mix of the technology , my stubbornness to cough up to renew our MS 365 sub. & reminders going off left right & centre for stuff I had put on a back burner for today , I was thoroughly frustrated with everything by the time my Sister rang this evening, to the point where the cats & Mrs Squirrel had vacated the immediate vicinity and various pieces of tech were in severe danger of being lobbed across the room!

I don’t do defeat, I do however work on the basis of a deadline to force me to do stuff, which then leads to frustration if stuff goes wrong!
To thoroughly misquote Yoda ,“Frustration leads to anger , anger leads to hate , hate leads to the dark side ! “

Tomorrow morning will absolutely have to be dedicated to finishing this flipping ASD Self assessment report !

I can prevaricate for England it seems !

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

snoopy_jay, 6 months ago to actuallyautistic

@actuallyautistic
What's the deal with "keen sense of justice"? I am not sure what it's called in English, but I keep reading that it's an autism thing and I definitely have been accused of an "exaggerated" sense of justice or having too much of it. Why do we have that?

DEF CON 31 - An Audacious Plan to Halt the Internet's Enshittification (www.youtube.com)

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theendismeh, 10 months ago (edited 10 months ago) to opensource

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If you had $5,000 to donate to your favourite open-source projects, which one would they be?

I would donate to (and have donated to some of) the following:...