we’re so back. anyways as you can tell by the other pinned post, we’ve been a little busy with a lot of stuff on the backend and that’s probably going to continue into the foreseeable future
Any chance it’s allergy related? I get hit pretty hard in the spring and early fall with allergies, and it has always felt remarkably similar to the early signs of when I had COVID.
Do you mean that you’re obese? I’ve actually met someone today that I really like who is obese, and I’ve had a ONS with someone who was obese. Don’t sell yourself short!
You know a lot of guys feel insecure about balding but I’ve always liked it. Same with gray hair. I also have a friend who is into people who are very skinny or are missing limbs. Weird I know but I am just saying you never know what other people look for. And at the end of the day its not your looks people fall for.
And I am not even talking about friendship here, which is arguably better for many people, or simply strangers.
You know this might sound made up but I’ve never met a confident woman except for that woman from the ONS. That’s what I fell for. She had been bullied so badly, at some point she just decided to start validating herself. It’s so rare.
And how is any of this related to friendship? Those are arguably better any way.
I don’t mean to invalidate your feelings but I feel people often want the things they can’t have, and when it comes to love that applies to everyone. I think romantic relationships are put too much on a pedestal in our culture. The truth is that finding true love is a rare thing and it isn’t something most of us should expect. And if you do happen to find it in your life, you don’t know when. It might have already happened or it might happen when you are 80.
Christian/platonic love can be just as fulfilling or even more so because it doesn’t have the carnal aspect. And that’s the kind of love you give, rather than expect to receive.
I started a new full time job at a deli, big change from sitting around all day. It is a pretty chill job, everyone is super nice, but my feet/legs/back are killing me. Hopefully the new shoes I ordered arrive today and help out. I’ve been pretty exhausted, but I think I’ll get used to it.
Might be the cooler, damper weather coming in - not that it gets hot here in the summer & we’ve been incredibly fortunate to avoid extreme weather so far this year, but just greatly prefer autumn & winter.
Planning to start exercising later in the week, which will feel good as currently an uncomfortable mix of feeble as jello, gnarled up with stiffness.
Excited to see how Beehaw develops next, in light of discussions initiated by recent admin posts.
Going good! Got a few new games, been feeling a bit blah but am getting over that gradually. Been cutting my social media usage a bit, I deleted my microblogging fediverse account and pretty much just have Lemmy now which still eats up a lot of my time but still a huge improvement since I’m not spending nearly as much time online anymore as I was, it was getting to be a bit too much.
Edit: Also just today, I decided to drop my Japanese studying that I’ve been doing for a few years and fully focus on Castilian Spanish that I’ve been learning on the side instead. Japanese was getting to be way too much of a workload and timesink for me. Hoping this helps get rid of some stress.
I got No Man’s Sky (for some reason seeing Starfield stuff made me want to play that again, haven’t played it since launch on console) and Monster Hunter World again, really just old games I used to have on console and have been really tempted to play again since I found them on good sales
I am studying for an online degree and since past 4-5 days my laptop has been acting up. I reset my pc, but it’s still behaving weird sometimes, but not so much as before. So I am feeling a bit better now. I was very stressed out because of this.
If you run Windows, if you want, try to run sfc /scannow in an admin command line, it scans system files and repairs any corrupt ones, sometimes it helps sometimes not but imo it’s worth a try.
Little hectic, I moved and changed jobs and still I had to “visit” my parents sometimes to get my stuff and dealing with paperwork. But it will get better I will probably have everything done today.
One month on CPAP. I hate the thing and it hasn’t improved my sleep. I made a recording using Sleep As Android and I’m still snoring a bit. I am waiting to get an appointment with the actual specialist who ordered my sleep test and prescribed CPAP- I’ve never met him, and am not sure I ever would have met him if I hadn’t melted down a little when the ResMed drone said that my numbers are excellent and that “studies show” that most people adjust within six weeks. Well, I’m not a number, I’m a neurodivergent individual with individual needs and quoting study results at me does not help or reassure.
Cautiously optimistic. Weather is looking pleasant all week. I’ve managed to get my backlog at work down from about 6 months to 2, so that’s a lot less stress.
Prepping for a dirt bike race next month (hare scramble) and it’s been 4 years since I have; I’m super out of shape but it’ll be fun.
I understand healing is not a linear process, but some days just feel so hard. I’ve been exercising very regularly(dropped 15kg), going to therapy, engaging with other people, but any amount of effort still feels Herculean. It was pointed out to me that low testosterone levels could cause some of these symptoms so I guess I’ll get that checked next. But yeah, my week has been difficult…too many losses in a very short time span…
Yesterday was very productive and then I got to spend the evening gaming with friends, so that was nice! Today I have jury duty, and potentially for most of the rest of the week… It’s fine, but my fingers are still crossed that I end up getting dismissed and can go back to my sorely neglected research tasks!
Pretty stressy this week. I’ve been working 2 jobs until my startup gets off the ground and we have to rebuild our bathroom and my cats had to go to the vet and my brother’s wedding is next month and my adhd makes it very hard to not feel like all that stuff is happening at once.
But that’s been going on for a while now, so hopefully i’ll get used to it.
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