Grew a Pokémon GO community, became a Pokémon GO community ambassador, quit my job, struggled with unemployment and having no work available in my field locally, and seemingly no one but super shady people willing to hire remotely anymore.
Got a massive raise, switched to the four-day work week because I can afford it now, went to the cinema almost every week and watched a shit-ton of great movies. I even attended a marathon with all Harry Potter movies back to back and slept in the cinema.
Made a new friend, got diagnosis and treatment for ADHD, learned to use a sewing machine, got into American Girl dolls and doll photography, had some guests over at my house, got further into climate activism.
Well, I spend the first half of the year with depression so bad I rarely left my bed and basically didn’t work for 6 months straight. I’ve spent the second half of the year finally on working depression meds again and spending every spare cent on mortgage repayments so I can keep my house. Those should be finishing up early next year so next year is going to be my year because if anything this has taught me how to survive on very little money so I will feel positively rich compared to before.
So this year was a bust but I’m going to get so much shit done next year. I’m thinking my house (which currently looks like a crackhouse) is due for a whole lot of remoddling next year.
Thank you. It wasn’t much I did though. I just spun the wheel of pharmacology a few times and finally got it to land on the right med. The only reason it got so bad this time was because it took a few more spins than usual to hit the right one. So far that was the unluckiest I’ve ever been in that regard.
still, you managed to create the strenght to have hope, patience and stick to the treatment even if you may have felt tired, anxious and unwilling to keep fighting.
imagine a car squeezing out every last drop of gas (wrong gas!) until reaching the next station. normally, cars wouldn’t even be able to move. yet you are doing it!
many people (maybe you among them for now) can’t realize about such a feat, but… holy s*it.
yeah. even with crippling depression, they are managing to create their own strength to fight and do stuff.
also, i think it’s wiser and smarter to focus on one important thing now, than getting anxious about not doing 173927 things, trying to do them and failing, and feeling even worse. (anyway, healthy people can’t do many things either, but they don’t feel so guilty/worthless, those are more depression symptoms).
also, we are talking about depression, which is downplayed and misunderstood most of the time. aboulia, anhedonia, apathy and avolition are horrible yet invisible symptoms. someday science will be able to measure them and show people how disabling they are, and realize the amazing merit of people unadvertly fighting them everyday.
because the lemmitor is fighting against it, and sharing it with us. that is so nice. i think things will get better for them. even if they may think it’s not much, many of us know it’s a lot, bc we know how depression works. the ‘achievement curve’ may look slow or plane for now to them, but we know it’s not: it’s going higher every day it passes.
Graduated university, moved back home, started looking for a job and that’s been a majority of my year. Oh, and I finally beat a bunch of games that have been on my list so I got that going on for me which is nice.
Worked over the summer, then after I got a 4 season canvas tent and have been staying in it past few months learning the ins and outs of offgrid life. Put my Electrical degree to use by building up a small solar system. Learned a hell of a lot about keeping yourself warm.
Currently is been raining kind of hard and the ground isn’t absorbing water well since its cold so water has been seeping into the floor of my tent, obviously that’s not great so m current focus is on getting a platform built for the tent to go up on.
After that I want to get a wood stove since heating with propane cost a little bit compared to finding free woof to burn, but I am worried that the smoke and smell would draw too much attention. May have to just live with propane until I get my own property that isnt fucked by an HOA but I REALLY want a wood stove just cause I think its rad as hell and our neighbors have a bonfire all the time so what’s the difference really. Maybe I’m worried over nothing and nobody would care really.
My sibling burned their life down with some stupid bs and their kids ended up in the system so I’ve been kind of stuck helping my elderly parents through the foster/adoption process since may. Its been a massive headache and I didn’t get to go camping like I wanted to but sometimes doing the right thing means making sacrifices to your own self interest. Hopefully well have them by Christmas and I have enough cash left by spring to go camping before job hunting.
Got a job that doesn’t suck and has allowed me to grow as a person. I do wish it’d pay more, but I no longer dread life and actually get excited to go in to the office.
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