Are my #ActuallyAutistic comrades employed/self-employed? If not, do you want to be (and it’s totally legit not to want to work - we are worth more than what we produce)? If you are, is your job your calling? Or a stop gap?
Every Saturday night my partner and I watch comedy TV shows together and inevitably I slowly dissociate and autistically shut down until I feel like just a soap bubble of melancholy bobbing along a foggy current, reality and thought reduced to a dull hum as I watch someone else's stories and mourn the stories I fear I will never write, but in a deep down way I could never put into words, unable to act, unable to speak, sitting next to someone but feeling half a universe away, and wholly and completely alone.
Every. freaking. week. The Owl House and Rick and Morty shouldn't have this effect on someone. But it's hard to get help for it when I can barely explain it. Does anyone else get this mix of #dissociation and #AutisticShutdown (and possibly also emotional flashback?)