Every Saturday night my partner and I watch comedy TV shows together and inevitably I slowly dissociate and autistically shut down until I feel like just a soap bubble of melancholy bobbing along a foggy current, reality and thought reduced to a dull hum as I watch someone else's stories and mourn the stories I fear I will never write, but in a deep down way I could never put into words, unable to act, unable to speak, sitting next to someone but feeling half a universe away, and wholly and completely alone.
Every. freaking. week. The Owl House and Rick and Morty shouldn't have this effect on someone. But it's hard to get help for it when I can barely explain it. Does anyone else get this mix of #dissociation and #AutisticShutdown (and possibly also emotional flashback?)
@autisticompulsive@actuallyautistic A lot of television makes my eyes glaze over. It used to be always on at our house, but now I live alone I only watch one or two favoured shows and that's it.
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