That’s me as well. A bunch of my friends could handle watching the murder and dismemberment of other people. I’ve never been able to. Not unless I know for sure it’s fake (like in a horror movie, that kind of gore is fine). I’ve never had a desire to see any sort of “snuff film”. Hell, I did see the hanging of Saddam video, and I still looked away.
That being said, I have seen 2 Girls One Cup, and the One Man One Jar video. But I’d advise against both. Neither of those are sad, just revolting.
I never searched for stuff like this cuz I’m kinda sensitive on this, but I have a friend who would sometimes show me and other friends really disgusting things since we were like 10 years old.
My father was very tech oriented and worked for a community college as a technician, which enabled him to get used and outdated computers for cheap if not free, as well as his hobby of scouring the area for any computer equipment for sale or being disposed of to find anything of value.
So, by age 5 I had a computer in my bedroom. Not a powerful one mind you, the thing could barely run Doom which came out that year (1993) and it some kind of DOS that didn’t even use a mouse. Later that same year we got the internet which my father hooked into the home network he setup. While he tried to put some safeguards and restrictions on its use, it didn’t taken my sisters an myself long at all to figure out how to bypass and defeat those restrictions. Nor that long for me to figure out how to view another computer on the network and see what they had been up to, finding my dads search history and also finding his poorly executed attempt at restricting search terms which just made me look all those things up after disabling the file that was supposed to block them.
I’ve been watching gore since like 12. Some dude sent me the old livegore website and I peeked a look at it. First, I was a bit scaredy then got used to it. Honestly, I rarely even peek there these days, it’s so boring tbh. I am pretty sure it messed me in the brain somewhere, watching gore at that early age.
Been on the Internet maybe 23 years or so and I’ve seen some wild shit back in the day that didn’t phase me. Got shown some stuff on kaotic recently and it upset me a hell of a lot more than it would have 13 year old me.
Personally I feel like it’s less about exposure to extreme gore and porn and stuff like that. It’s more about the constant barrage of awful shit happening all over the world. Some stupid thing some politician said, police brutality, an asshole on a plane, etc. Our brains just weren’t designed to handle so much stimulus overload. I’m not a psychologist or whatever but that’s my opinion.
Social media, like reddit, is just a constant rage bait machine. I spend less time on lemmy since getting away from reddit and it’s so much better for mental health.
The constant barrage of awful shit, which btw does not represent real life! Most of us will never encounter 99% of the bullshit we see, was just awful.
It makes us all angry, bitter and shitter people online.
I find lemmy better so far becuase, even though there are always shit heads there’s less assholes here.
Partly because there is less content, but also because there simply are less shitty assholes leaning left.
Left usually means you’re more compassionate so I feel like conversations can go on longer before devolving into shittery.
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