Pretty awful. Work sucks and I had to put my cat down on Friday. She was my best friend. I was okay over the weekend but I am increasingly lonely and heartachey.
I lost my kitty last year. Was very close to her as well. I don’t believe in ghosts but I think her ghost visited me in a dream shortly after she died. I’ll miss her forever.
Grief comes in waves and you can never predict when one will hit. I lost my cat of 15 years a couple months ago and I still swear I hear his meow sometimes
I had a roof leak about 5 years ago that cause a lot of damage in one of the bedrooms. I fixed the leak but it took a long time to save up to fix the room. Last month I finally had enough money to get it fixed.
On Sunday, tropical storm Hilary caused several roof leaks including over the same bedroom. The ceiling, wall and carpet that I just replaced is destroyed along with a good chunk of ceiling in the garage. I can tear out the drywall in the garage and leave it, but idk how I’m going to afford to fix the roof and the bedroom.
I’ve been attempting to make youtube videos for the first time. I realized there was a topic surrounding the new zelda game that hadn’t been covered yet so I am doing finishing touches on that. But its made me want to make more videos.
I’m really struggling to come up with a core theme or topic for my channel. I’m thinking of making some kind of video game / anime / Manga type content. The tricky part is I don’t want to do just reviews and I don’t want to make just gameplay or whatever either. I was thinking of talking about certain topics. The idea seems really vague though. I’m also trying to not get discouraged before I even start.
But realistically I know that section of youtube is pretty saturated. So I know that whatever I make needs to be solid otherwise nobody will want to watch it lol.
I’ve been watching creators for over a decade now. I have a general idea of what makes good content and I’ve been doing more specific research too. But I realize at some point t I just need to start publishing stuff
best of luck! i can’t imagine trying to break into that space now. Honestly though, i feel like the YouTube game is aged enough that now there is always a certain percentage of users that are “in between” favorite channels, and that creates room for people like you to become their new favorite channel. I know for me personally, I used to watch a lot of Game Grumps, then I stopped with that once their politics started to bother me (the grooming allegations didn’t help either). Then I watched a lot of Giant Bomb, and then a bunch of their core crew left and the content changed so i stopped watching that.
At each of these points i was a very “capturable” user, so idk. I think there’s always a chunk of users like that these days, so don’t feel like no one will care about your stuff, even if the space is saturated. “Saturation” is not a permanent state.
Thanks for the encouragement! Yeah I’m intimidated but I figure the worst that can happen is that I learn some new skills. So I figure it can’t hurt to try haha.
Your thoughts on saturation are actually very similar to what I was thinking about too. Some of the channels that I started watching a lot only started in 2015 or 2017. So I figure it’s worth a shot if I put some effort and elbow grease into it
I struggle with making videos sometimes too, even though we have a pretty clear vision for our channel. I encourage you to put your stuff out there! You’ll find people who’d like to have those conversations with you and that can help to further define your content. It’s daunting for sure, but it’s been rewarding to build and find community by sharing what we’re passionate about. For us, it’s mostly garden related but there’s always an opportunity to show other aspects of who you are. If you’re worried about a theme, consider that your thoughtful take and genuine interest will be enough to bring folks to you, whatever topic you might decide to pour yourself into.
Sure! I don’t think it’s anything too special to be honest. I found that nobody had covered what all the kilton statues looked like, so I went and gathered them all in one place so someone could look them up.
I’m still learning, but it was a good way to take those first steps. If you have any feedback I would love to hear it! I think for my next video I want to work on my audio levels more and figure out how to make my voice sound better.
Report it to the moderators, they will shut those shits down. Beehaw is one of the more accepting communities I’ve come across especially with the mods - as someone else mentioned it could be other instances creeping in as well.
A little stressed about work and money and trying to not panic about climate change. Overall just exhausted, fending off depression as best as I can, looking for new ways to keep myself motivated and excited about life. I’m going to experiment with new recipes this weekend.
Haven’t posted on Lemmy before. Excited to be in a small queer community. This week: made some fun art with my partner, organized back if house at a nonprofit, had great coffee, and enjoyed nature
I’ve been struck down by some mystery illness. My head hurts but mostly I’m just fatigued and my mental faculties aren’t where they should be. I teach languages yet I can’t remember words for basic things right now! So I’m taking a few days off to recover. Hopefully will be back in by the end of the week.
In other news, I’ll be five months off alcohol this week. Social situations have become easier, I’m getting used to being a little bit goofy at parties and my friends have been super supportive! One even looked shocked when I held my partner’s beer at a festival a few weeks ago and made a joke saying they couldn’t remember the last time they saw me with a beer! It sounds small but it meant the world 😊
As I’m confined to my couch for the next little while I’m probably going to be a bit more active on beehaw! Hope you’re all having a nice week!
I’ve been struck down by some mystery illness. My head hurts but mostly I’m just fatigued and my mental faculties aren’t where they should be. I teach languages yet I can’t remember words for basic things right now! So I’m taking a few days off to recover. Hopefully will be back in by the end of the week.
2 years ago I would have said that sounds a lot like long COVID. I’m assuming you’re vaxxed and everything so that’s probably unlikely. Fingers crossed you feel better! Make some posts in your favorite communities here. We need the content 😉
You’re right I’m all vaxxed up! It’s a real head scratcher. I don’t have any physical symptoms other than being tired and having a sore head but the mental symptoms are awful! And of course having no physical symptoms (no cold symptoms) makes me feel like I’m faking it ughhh.
I’m a huge believer of listening to my body when it’s in distress so I’m HOPING all this couch time will speed up my recovery.
Make some posts in your favorite communities here. We need the content
So weird that you mention the iron deficiency because a friend of mine literally just suggested that too. I follow a mostly plant based diet and I’m low on iron to begin with. Not only that but being sober means I don’t get as many meaty takeaways as hungover treats, I wonder if that has affected my nutrition. Will put myself on some iron tablets and report back!
Week is okay! I’ve been not making plans with friends because i’m trying to reserve time for applying to new jobs, but spending more time at home has me a lil depressed. it’s a small funk, and I’ll get over it. It’s just hard balancing carving out time for this when life keeps on happening. Reminds me why i’ve been putting this off for like 2 years now.
I’ve been tooling around with using GPT4all to write cover letters - tbd if that is worth the effort, but i hate writing cover letters from scratch so i’m willing to put up with a lot of BS if it saves me from that.
These last two days I’ve been working on my digital wellbeing. Did some filtering on all my email accounts (i have about 7), and deleted 25-30% overall :D
It took a lot of willpower to actually revisit mails dating back to 2013. Fun trip to the past.
I’m at my grandma’s right now (in vacation). It’s been fun since 3 weeks. But I got so many projects to finish with friends, there’s this very mysterious military abandoned building we need to explore, etc… and I really want to see them before we get back to class.
Next year will be a hell, I won’t probably even be with them but I have to cope last year of high school.
I’m kinda depressed of being stuck here, I just wish I could explore the city for abandoned places… or anything to do.
I started doing philosophy, thinking when I’m not programming to get out of my depressed mind.
Way I see it, you’ve got your whole life ahead of you. When you get out of high school and either go to college or join the workforce or learn a trade (I did both; went to college, got a degree in biochemistry and now I do unionized construction [as part of a trade; I operate heavy equipment] for way more money), your entire life opens up. You can do whatever you want with that time, and live your life on your terms.
That said, there’s gonna be times ahead that you may be stuck in one town or place. That’ll be a good time to familiarize yourself with the area and see what’s happening socially. Not just bars or gyms, but clubs, group activities, etc.
Urban exploration was always fun when I was your age, but just be careful. Especially if the abandoned building you and your friends are interested in is military. Never know what they forgot, or who’s still watching the place.
Anyway, hang in there, it gets better.
Edit: Also when I say “clubs,” I don’t mean the dance floor. Hobby clubs.
Supervisor was being a prick last night during our shift, but I’m on 4-10s so I have the weekend now. And I’m unionized, so really whenever the mood strikes me, I can tell said supervisor to blow me. I’ll still have a job. Thing is, the guy’s like a parasite: if you let him get under your skin, he wins. So I bite my tongue and do my thing, fuck 'em.
Aside from that? Might finish Baldur’s Gate 3 this weekend, but I’ve got errands to run and cleaning to do. Maybe some shopping. All in all, not a bad week. I leave the bullshit at work and live my life.
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