I just had the realization that I’ve resigned myself to my dead end job. The holidays are coming and it always makes me feel happy and sad. It makes me reflect on all the things I wish I could do for my parents and my family. And while I have done a lot over the years, I just feel like I’m a frog in a well.
I’ve been trying to pursue creative endeavors as a way to feel like I have some kind of purpose in life. It’s been helping a little which is good. Sorry for the negative comment. I’m sure next week will be better
It’s been a slog. Don’t get chickenpox as an adult, don’t let your kid get ill right after chickenpox. Oh, and live in a country with decent healthcare, that helps too.
Well if anybody read my previous comment, I had a date a few weeks ago and scored an apartment. She allowed me to move in earlier, before she moved out. So we’re roommates now! And it’s a studio apartment so ya she’s an angel. Of course I immediately started doing all the chores and trying my best to cook the best meal for her.
To be honest I’m sad that she’s looking for a new place. I wouldn’t mind living with her. In fact I think I would really like it. It’s like we just click.
Anyway I woke up with the same smile I went to bed with. I was technically homeless and living in my office. It was damn cold. I am talking 13 degrees if you set the heating to 1000 euro a month, because electricity and war.
We used to heat it with wood and that was like 350 a month, but at least it was warm. It’s not allowed any more.
Well I’m just glad things are more stable now. It’s too much to explain but it was really bad. Now I can take care of the stuff that’s urgent and then hopefully I’ll be bored for a while. Then I’ll continue with my life work!
I’m really glad you’re in a better spot now. Definitely hoping you can keep that trajectory.
My eyes popped at 350/month. That’s… that’s a lot. Around us $750 gets you two cords and that’s enough to heat our space all winter (but the house is <1200 square feet so it doesn’t take much).
About to be on vacations for the holidays. The season’s been hitting me hard and I (should) welcome a good two weeks of slouching about in unproductive bliss. On the other hand I’ve had so many bad Christmas that anxiety levels are mounting for no good reason. I’ve cut off a lot of unpleasant things from the holidays in the last years but I’m still coping with the aftermath.
Also I’m slowly coming to terms with the fact that I don’t know how to rest anymore. So I’ll do my best to keep positive and do nice things even though I’m a little apprehensive. There are some bits of my mind I could do without, ugh.
I posted last week about being anxious for a big exam I had coming up. I was getting physically ill from the anticipation, and so I decided to just send it instead of waiting and studying until the last minute (it’s a WGU OA, so I can take it whenever.)
I’m super happy to say that I absolutely crushed it! That’s my last sit-down test, so now all that’s between me and my Bachelor’s is some essays and a work-based-learning experience! Needless to say I’m doing pretty good. :)
i’m on my last day of house sitting two big goofy german shepherds (+ a turtle). it’s been nice to veg out and chill with some mellow dogs and not have anything else to worry about. looking forward to sleeping in my own bed tonight though. i’ll be back here for a quick overnight on saturday-sunday, then going into winterfest weekend full ham.
it’s a turtle in recovery, so that’s the identification number! technically this turtle has recovered, but it’s too late in the year to release it, so it’s overwintering until it’s warm out again. this is all through the local vet school, NC state university. :)
Power’s out - we’re seeing wind gusts over 50mph and have gotten a little over two inches of rain since last night. Currently waiting for the lowest-ranked-in-the-US power company to repair things. Two trees snapped off their trunks about eight feet off the ground and landed just a few feet from our duck yard, so at least I don’t have to fix any fencing.
Edit: power’s back! Met two nice folks from Canada who were down this way to do repairs and convinced them to take a tree off a line even though it wasn’t in their task list.
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