I self-isolated a lot, and indulged in all sorts of stimming, self medication etc. but the gist of it is, due to poor understanding of my own brain, this all cause self loathing and depression rather than regulation.
I think I burnt out at age eleven or so and never fully recovered. I have hope for the future tho.
@theautisticcoach@actuallyautistic as a younger undiagnosed person I retreated into drugs, in an effort to remove myself from reality. As an adult, I combine mysuc and reading to take over my senses and concentration whilst my brain resets itself. If meetings and work is hard, it is really difficult to regulate till I grt home though
@theautisticcoach@actuallyautistic I did not really self regulate at all beyond coping with stress poorly. I believed I was dangerously self-centered and hoped i could survive in perpetual hiding if I tried hard enough lol
@theautisticcoach@actuallyautistic Quite often, videos, music, and retreating to quiet spaces. Before I knew, I would retreat to a bathroom stall for 20-30 mins and sit with my eyes closed after excessively taxing meetings in the office.
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