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seanwithwords

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pronouns are he/they. teacher, writer, spoken word performer, activist; member of Nobody's Pen Collective & The Artivist Corp. #ActuallyAutistic creative writing their own path Descriptions of Images: Header is a setting (or rising?) sun, with orange sky and a rusty pink cloud formation. The profile pic is one of me, wearing glasses and dark shirt, framed by an opened laptop and a to-go cup of coffee. Taken at Good Brothas Cafe in Harrisburg, PA.

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theautisticcoach, to actuallyautistic
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How did my comrades self-regulate before they knew that they were or before they learned healthy ways to do so?

@actuallyautistic

seanwithwords,
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@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic endless hours at stupid video games. when healthier, endless hours writing.

ScottSoCal, to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic

I'm resurrecting an old special interest and making it new. As a child I wanted to put together models, but I'd get impatient and want to skip to the end. That doesn't work. In my adult life I've developed a love of process - creating a list and checking things off one at a time. I've checked off nearly all the things to prep, and in my time off during the holidays I'm going to begin putting together a model. My first as an adult.

seanwithwords,
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@ScottSoCal @actuallyautistic so cool! I used to make model airplanes as a kid but I always struggled with the water based adhesive decorations so there was always frustration lol . But it’s so satisfying when they come out right!

snoopy_jay, to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic
What's the deal with "keen sense of justice"? I am not sure what it's called in English, but I keep reading that it's an autism thing and I definitely have been accused of an "exaggerated" sense of justice or having too much of it. Why do we have that?

seanwithwords,
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@poloniousmonk @Vincarsi @FrightenedRat @punishmenthurts @snoopy_jay @HaelusNovak @actuallyautistic yes. check out reddit 😬

Sci_Fi_FanGirl, to actuallyautistic German
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A few weeks ago, someone asked me what makes me happy or what I enjoy doing. I said, among others, that I liked playing the guitar very much, but hadn't done it in a while. Couldn't say why I hadn't.

This bothered me. I thought about it and finally found out why I had stopped: I had played something for a friend and felt very ashamed afterwards. Why did I do it in the first place? Why this song? How could I even think it was worth showing?

Can't seem to get over it.

@actuallyautistic

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic I feel this. I love playing guitar and I've been in situations where I wanted to play it around people but I'm too scared of shame to do that. I actually chose to bring a guitar on a camping trip with family and then intentionally accidentally left it across the river from our site because I was too scared to play it.

when I'm alone I rock out. but honestly just the idea of making noise like that goes against my "lay low" approach to surviving life

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic ok so check this out… a friend of mine asked me last year to play bass backup for two songs at an event. I spent a week leaning both really well. At the event, he already had another bass but needed a guitar. So I was enlisted to do that. It was glorious and terrible. I did well with the two songs I knew the chords to, but the 3rd had weird chords I couldn’t recognize by ear (I’m tone deaf-ish) or by watching the bass. I just hung on lol

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic there’s one picture of the band at the event and it’s so obvious who the autistic person is lol 🫠🤣

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic in some ways it was a dream come true. My childhood dream was to be a rock star. So it felt really cool when we were on the same song and I was contributing to the vibe. The last song was 100% shame filled and I was a mess every second just begging Time to move faster as I pretended to play and tried to hit the occasionally correct note. But at the end, the crowd loved everything and it was great. I’m happy about it for sure…

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic …but my stage work is best left to poetry. I feel at home in that space and my local following is enough to keep me happy about that 😀

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic I never enjoyed a stage until I tried spoken word about 2 years ago. I got ok at teaching bc I loved the content, & figuring out how to teach to kids in ways that work. In my post bacc program, I had to bail a major presentation bc of stagefright, and I kinda hate being in front of people in many spaces. But I’ve always been drawn to the idea of performing, for sure. That’s it I think- not any stage but that kind of creative achievement

seanwithwords,
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@LordCaramac @Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic I’m nodding along 😀 I can play great on my own but self consciousness takes over when I’m being watched. I can also answer most of the Jeopardy questions each nite but I have to remind my partner all the time that if I did apply and ever got on that stage, I’d completely dissolve. What I do perform on stage is VERY carefully rehearsed. I love that you’re recording yr work! 🤗

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic I’ve always sought attention for my writing. For decades I never got it. I got bad grades in school bc my creative writing was too offbeat or weird. I’ve queried two novels - one got over 100 rejections. Getting positive feedback from the stage was a feeling I never imagined and I’m grateful I found a space for it. I nevertheless hate attention and hate when people have eyes on me.

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic nah...one was a coming of age, stream of consciousness book that has some great bits but I'm not sure it was worth publishing. the second was a fictionalized account of my experiences on and after 9/11 in NYC, and it was described as vivid and "overly self-conscious" by a variety of rejecting agents, who only read the first 50 pp.

I published some excerpts years ago on Newsvine when I used to write there...I'll see if I can dig anything up :)

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic and I'm "in progress" on a 3rd novel that I almost finished shortly before my special interest switched from that to spoken word poetry. I'm letting that simmer and getting close to going back into it for some major edits. I'd like to make that into something, but novel writing is tough bc it takes a lot of extended dedicated time, and it's difficult for me to accomplish that during the school year.

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic thats always been my plan. I got a lot of work done on it during early COVID. I got caught up in spoken word during the winter of 21-22, and thats about when I stopped. I have a full first draft, with a few missing parts toward the end. but I overwrote it, and since I've shifted to poetry more lately, I see ways I can edit it into something tighter and stronger

I've written a bunch of short stories too :) I really should collect my work somewhere :thinkerguns:

magicalgrrrl, to random
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#ActuallyAutistic community!

How do I make friends as an adult? I'm new to my area and don't have any local friends or community. Have been struggling with loneliness a lot lately.

seanwithwords,
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@foolishowl @magicalgrrrl @actuallyautistic same. I’m really bad at friendships but I’m ok as a partner.

Late in life, I’m seeing the downside of that.

sebwhatever, to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic
I smoke a lot of weed throughout my day. It's how I cope. It's how I take the edge off. Any one else get high regularly?

seanwithwords,
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@sebwhatever @actuallyautistic yup! I have a medical card (my state doesnt allow recreational yet) for my PTSD symptoms.

weed helps tremendously to soften the internal ruminations socially, to sleep better, and to get creative. i use it recreationally (instead of drinking socially, etc) on occasion, but mostly it's just to deal with life

MarjoleinRotsteeg, to writers Dutch
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Hello fellow-writers, help wanted. Last week my partner lost a number of my tabs. They are irretrievable. One of them was of a website by women on ao growing vegs and, if I remember it well, pictures of pumpkins. They also asked for fiction submissions on nature, with possible bonus points for a vegan character. It's not hearthstories.
Can anybody help me, please? Thanks in advance!

@writingcommunity @writers

seanwithwords,
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@MarjoleinRotsteeg @writingcommunity @writers I can't help with the website but I will say that if you happen to browse using a google account, your entire history is saved in a really well-indexed list that lets you locate search and site history a lot more deeply than a history search provides

https://myactivity.google.com/myactivity

JeremyMallin, to actuallyautistic
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I rarely ever address anyone by name. There are people I've known for decades whose names I've never even used when addressing them directly.

Is that an #Autism thing?

#ActuallyAutistic @actuallyautistic

seanwithwords,
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@JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic in many situations, I find that to be very forward/condescending. there are times when it doesnt bother me, like in some greetings. but I generally avoid it and I generally dont like hearing people use my name when speaking to me. the quality of the relationship is a factor -- if I know and/or trust a person very well and feel an affection for them, I'm better with it because it (to me) can signal closeness in certain spaces

holyramenempire, to actuallyautistic
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This is kind of a half-baked thought, but one of the reasons children of abusive or neglectful parents have such a hard time having self-worth is that when other people treat you like something is wrong with you, by withholding care, you start to believe it. You're a logical, sensible person, so everyone else must also have reasons for what they do, therefore withholding care from you has to have a reason. No one's telling you the reason, so it must be something REALLY bad.

But for #ActuallyAutistic folks, aren't most of us treated like that by the whole of society, not just our parents? We are fundamentally not supported, even by the most well-meaning non-autistic people. We are treated like a problem to be solved. To me, it amounts to a withholding of care that signals to us "You're not wanted." No wonder so many of us are sick and suicidal, you know?

@actuallyautistic

seanwithwords,
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@holyramenempire @actuallyautistic a recurring them in my therapy is how I am caught up in both brain/body responses to negative childhood events as well as logically negative responses to similar events happening to me now. like, yes -- I have trauma responses. but: also: AND: often when I act naturally today, I get negative responses, that I have feelings about.

always on alert bc I have so few positive experiences when I'm unmasked etc

helenstlouis, to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic

Hello @ActuallyAutisic community! This is my first post here. I'm exploring my possible neurodivergence late in life (my awareness of this has been raised via my psychotherapy training).

I've always known that I like routine. But this week, I am aware that because my routine is very disrupted on two days, I cannot focus, I'm feeling extremely anxious, I forgot the changes/implications of the changes and messed up my schedule. I am generally very strict about putting things in my diary and somehow I let that slip and my life has become a mess! :bd08: . Anyone identify?

seanwithwords,
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@helenstlouis @actuallyautistic I can totally identify. I am also late identified and trying to figure this out. now that I know what causes me problems, I am having a lot of issues around plans changing or routines being disrupted

seanwithwords,
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@helenstlouis @actuallyautistic and whats hilarious (to me) is that when I told my parents recently that I'm Autistic and we talked about what that may have looked like when I was a kid, my dad's first question was about how I reacted when plans changed lol. I didnt even know that was an issue because I'd masked myself into numbness about it for long. but now that I know, i can see that my responses are right back to what they were as a kid, and I'm less able to hide from them

Sci_Fi_FanGirl, to actuallyautistic German
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@actuallyautistic

So, finally I got my official diagnosis.

Having someone neutral confirm my suspicion feels validating somehow. Helps to fight the imposter syndrome. It is a relief.

But it's also overwhelming and confusing. I want to tell everybody and live openly autistic, yet I also fear negative consequences. Then again, I'm tired of masking.

Complicated feelings that I don't fully understand.

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic congratulations! ❤️

theautisticcoach, to actuallyautistic
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How did my comrades come to know that they’re autistic?

@actuallyautistic

seanwithwords,
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@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic I went into a rabbit hole about the connections bt ADHD (which I was dx'ed with 15 years ago) and Autism. then my therapist and I went thru the DSM in a pretty straightforward way. most if not all of the traits were things we'd been focusing on for a while and it was clear pretty quickly that I'm Autistic. Everything makes sense now.

spika, to actuallyautistic
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One of the things that made it really hard for me to even consider that I might be autistic was the reputation that (verbal) autistics have for being direct and literal communicators.

I've never felt like I am a particularly direct communicator because of how often I have misunderstandings with people, autistic and allistic alike, for not being direct enough and relying too much on things like context clues and body language to reveal how I'm feeling about a particular thing rather than just coming out and being direct by saying it with words, and I think it's particularly a struggle around issues where there are a lot of mixed emotions and uncertainty around feelings.

@actuallyautistic

seanwithwords,
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@spika @actuallyautistic my experience has some overlap. I think I’ve always received communication literally, but I haven’t always produced literal communication. I think I adapted the latter as a mask, and I got really, really good at it bc written storytelling was an early special interest. I LOVED books & figuring out form/structure of figurative language etc. But I still get stumped in conversations bc I hear everything literally…moreso when emotions sneak in

AutisticAdam, to actuallyautistic
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Many autistic people struggle with “multiple choice” and “select the right answer” exam questions. A key reason for this is that the options available can feel - to our brains - like such vague simplifications or awkwardly worded answers that they all feel somewhat incorrect. 1/2

@actuallyautistic

seanwithwords,
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@AutisticAdam @actuallyautistic one of my strengths has always been able to discern what they're looking for on multiple choice exams. it was only my SAT scores that saved me from my "underachieving" grades in secondary school.

professionally written exams are generally much better than teacher-written exams, but there were always a few where I knew there was no one right answer. but I figured out the methodology well enough to do ok, & I'm good as a teacher at helping kids make those choices

seanwithwords, to actuallyautistic
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@I_Like_Books @Dr_Obvious @actuallyautistic I appreciate that distinction bt meltdowns and tantrums. I'm sorry you've had such painful/harmful meltdowns ❤️

seanwithwords, to actuallyautistic
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Late-identified people, I'd love to hear what your meltdowns look like.

I feel like much of my time is spent with disregulated body sensations. I often feel an urge to DO something but I get so twisted up in executive function indecision-making + ableist shame/judgement about looking "wrong," and with 5 decades of "moving with the sole purpose of not being noticed," that I only melt down on the inside.

@actuallyautistic

seanwithwords,
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@Dr_Obvious @actuallyautistic do you remember feeling better afterwards, or just in a more heightened state that needed a different release/outlet?

18+ seanwithwords,
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@dave @actuallyautistic thats a really powerful video & tbh it was tough to watch. I love how it was filmed to show the confusion and lack of clarity. thank you for sharing that

a lot of times I go for a walk, but it feels like that & a lot of time I get back home and I still feel really bad

I've tended to bang my head with my hands or on my bed's headboard, and walk in circles wanting to scream but it feels very harmful and unproductive.

seanwithwords,
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@Dr_Obvious @actuallyautistic that seems like a productive way to channel a need to melt down or shut down :)

I can remember times when I extended my "walk away" and was able to sit for a while and get into a different head space. honestly most of my "choices" when I feel bad inside are to be "away" somehow. if I can't get away, I close up. if I can get away, I find myself releasing or trying to release some energy, but it feels awkward and difficult to do that.

seanwithwords,
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@Dr_Obvious @actuallyautistic lol yeah quite possibly! :)

seanwithwords,
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@jrdepriest @actuallyautistic I learned about DBT recently thru a former student who was mis dx’d BPD and is now working much more productively. Thank you for sharing those details! One part of the work I’m doing that might resonate with you is self compassion. I’m going to try to let my body do more things like you’ve described…I think I’ve trained myself to stifle it all but I can see that sometimes just engaging muscles can be productive. I appreciate you ✊❤️

seanwithwords,
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@miaoue @actuallyautistic do you ever feel like a meltdown is helpful or is it always about finding ways to deal with the emotions internally?

seanwithwords,
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@Dr_Obvious @actuallyautistic I had a mini meltdown last night bc my partner asked to change our dinner plans at the last minute. I actually remembered this thread and went into the bathroom and just … moved … I shook my head and my hands a lot and silent screamed and I get a bit better. Shame is a big part of it - shame for having the emotion, shame that the emotion is uncontrolled & seemingly outsized, and shame that I can’t handle it without other ppl noticing

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic do you feel better afterwards, like there’s a release, or do you think it’s just that time has passed and things have subsided?

It must be so hard to hold things in around other people. But I feel that. That’s me after work a lot. I don’t know I’m overstimulated until I get to the car and it all hits

18+ seanwithwords,
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@Pawpower @dave @actuallyautistic damn I’m sorry. I also have a lot of built in habits due to physical punishment as a young kid and I think that’s where my “hide” response comes from. Just curl up and take it and don’t do anything like running or fighting that will make it worse.

seanwithwords,
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@Dr_Obvious @actuallyautistic maybe? I can’t verbalize my feelings bc the process of organizing my sensations into thoughts that have words that can be conveyed, understood, and heard is really difficult for me. I feel like I’m spinning out both cognitively and emotionally, and yr description of that event matches many, many examples from my life where “things went bad for Sean” but I’m the only one experiencing it, and I can’t find a way to let ppl in

seanwithwords,
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@TeacherGriff @actuallyautistic thats a really good analogy! and simple. I'll definitely use that when describing this to my family.

I'm currently doing an accounting of things that trigger me/things I "need" or "desire" as far as holding healthy boundaries. exploring what is positive and negative for me

some change is fine to me. change to a fuzzy block of future time isn't a big deal. but changing a set schedule or plan, especially if it fits with other things happening around it, is BAD

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic I've learned about "closing the stress cycle" and it resonates with me because, being Autistic, I suppose, I do love a firm resolution. I've been trying to do the things to release the stress but it's either not enough or it's the wrong thing, because I rarely feel better until I've worked thru everything cognitively

seanwithwords,
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@wilbr @miaoue @actuallyautistic if I get a single beat off my flow, my partner notices. she has CPTSD from a childhood of addicted and neglectful parents so her antennae are UP all the time. being able to articulate my emotions helps, even if it means "I'm feeling a way, it's not your fault, but I can't articulate it at the moment"

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic here’s a quick description… https://teachingcommons.stanford.edu/news/stress-cycles-what-they-are-and-how-manage-them

Basically we have to do something to remind us that we are safe. For me, even when I exercise, I don’t end up feeling the release stage. I can’t get my body’s vibe to release its grip on my brain’s activity. Or something

seanwithwords,
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@Sci_Fi_FanGirl @actuallyautistic "I have to work it out cognitively"...

yeah. that is really it.

for me, tho, "working it out cognitively" means that I build this structure inside myself in order to create a human that can live within whatever it is that is stressing me out. I feel like what I'm doing is regenerating a mask that starts on the inside, and I feel like I shouldn't be doing that anymore.

CynAq, to actuallyautistic
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I want to write a bit more about the issue of "tech" being used as a catch all term for the computer and software industries and their specific products from my own point of view as an person.

I won't talk here for very autistic person but only through my own experience, so anyone with a different experience which mine doesn't seem to articulate, please chime in and give us your perspective if you can.

My autistic brain works in a near 100% conscious mode. I engage with things intellectually and with vivid awareness, or I can't engage at all.

This means that if I hear or read a term, everything I know about that term (or more precisely all of the neural structure of my brain referring to that term) starts firing in some kind of a "ready" mode. When I hear the word "tech", since its a very broad term, my brain starts recalling every possible connotation of that word that I know of, until the context it's used in becomes clear so it can disregard the unused portion of the entirety of possible paths from "tech".

This uses an enormous amount of energy, both to load and to unload, and I kind of feel it happen. My blood pressure changes, sugar levels fluctuate, stress hormones and their inhibitors get released.

And all of the effects of these physiological processes create their own vivid emotions and feelings.

When someone is talking about pieces of software, within the actual context of software, using the term software, this isn't jarring to me as the amount of activity triggered in my brain perfectly coincides with the actual usage I get out of it. There's still an enormous amount of information potentially useless for that specific conversation, but there's time, and the extras are still close to the useful context so thinking out of the box solutions and new ideas become easy, which is at least satisfactory, if exhausting.

When someone says "tech" but talks about specific programming languages, my brain first gets ready to talk about any possible piece about the anthropological phenomenon of technology, then immediately is forced to switch to the "programming languages" category, which also triggers the software category because in order for my brain to do the conscious translation from "technology" to "programming language" it has to go through the "software technologies" category which sits between "tech" and "programming languages".

As I said earlier, this is jarring, exhausting and very uncomfortable.

This is what NT psychologists mean when they say "autistic people take things literally."

What that remark doesn't reveal is the mechanism that manifests this result.

I don't "take" things literally. I just consciously engage with every possible literal or non-literal connotation of a word until the context is apparent and my brain can settle itself into the needed part and filter out the rest.

There.

I happened to articulate and inertia too.

Now I need a quick nap and something to replenish the sugar I burned because I am almost dizzy.

Again, thanks for indulging me.

@actuallyautistic

seanwithwords,
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@CynAq @actuallyautistic “I don’t take things literally…” that whole paragraph is such a great articulation of the situation and what blows my damn mind is how obvious an approach that ought to be, even as it seems so strange to the Others

Like… what the fuck ELSE should a person do?! Walk around guessing at everything???

seanwithwords,
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@quietmarc @CynAq @actuallyautistic it’s that language-based ‘tism that made it so easy to miss… I wasn’t daydreaming I was connecting everything all at once and making stories in my head …

seanwithwords,
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@CynAq @actuallyautistic that’s it.

I’ve talked w my family a bit about this. I suppose our approach seems as foreign to them as the other way round. But it’s WILD to me.

And I guess that’s something that helps me understand my intrinsic differences with more clarity, esp during imposter syndrome junk. I’ll never feel that vibe with anyone in those same contexts. But I’m early in trying to unmask so I’m hopeful

HotWheels, to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic

Anyone have any method to dealing with shame that works on us?

I'm really good at processing my way out of this stuff but cannot shake the shame, which contributes massively to my PTSD and RSD symptoms.

I've got the CPTSD/ADHD/Autism triple threat going on, if that's useful info

seanwithwords,
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@HotWheels @actuallyautistic it's not a quick fix but I've been working a LOT on self-compassion work. there are audiobooks and meditations that are really helping me right now.

I say that as someone who is just now coming out of an extended period of time of self-loathing based on something I did that I was very ashamed of. I had made progress and I felt like I lost it, but I am getting back thru daily work. lmk if you'd like some titles or links.

seanwithwords,
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@HotWheels @actuallyautistic I started with this book: https://tinyurl.com/2p8x3kj6

this one then has a lot of practical work:
https://tinyurl.com/wt482k8e and I've just ordered its companion journal: https://tinyurl.com/msu9nuty

this is a meditation on Calm I use a lot:. https://tinyurl.com/8ca5au3r

and I also love this positivity book meditation: https://tinyurl.com/2yvuf6hk

daily, regular practice is essential for me. I meditate a.m. & p.m. for about 5-10 min. but shame has always wrecked me & I'm doing better

alexisbushnell, to random
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Looks less likely I'll get an Autism assessment having just had a letter saying they're now running a triage service and I have to contact then if I want to be put on the list to be seen by them, and if they decide I need an assessment then I'll be put on the currently 20 month long waiting list for an assessment...

seanwithwords,
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@alexisbushnell @actuallyautistic nice. That’s a good way to go after bureaucratic gatekeeping ❤️✊

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