Usually I am quite self-conscious, tend to people-please a lot and feel embarrassed after nearly every social interaction. I hide my true self mostly because I'm afraid people will reject me.
Yesterday though, I suddenly had this thought that I'm maybe not that pathetic after all, but actually a beautiful human being and that I want to be me.
@Sci_Fi_FanGirl@actuallyautistic@allautistics yes! Proud of you. I find that when I can make steps like that I feel so much better. In terms of interactions with other people who are used to my people pleasing it can get hairy. But ultimately that ends up better too. I’m only speaking for myself but I hope you experience something similar.
I just tend to think that there is no such thing as beauty among humans, because we represent the ugliness declared to be the purpose of life. (But of course the others are primarily to blame 😅)
Still, this reminds me of what Dolores from Westworld used to say: "Some people choose to see the ugliness in this world, the disarray. I choose to see the beauty. To believe there is an order to our days. A purpose."
@Sci_Fi_FanGirl@actuallyautistic@allautistics Ok, Because Dolores is not human, she can say that without it being cynical. When the main perpetrator of the ugliness of this world says that, such transfiguring statements are, in my perception, mainly a proof of human ignorance.
We could dive into very philosophical questions here and yes there is a lot more to the quote, but I only wanted to highlight the idea that we choose what we want to see. There is a lot of pain and ugliness in the world. Yet, this doesn't mean that there isn't beauty as well. To me it's important not to ignore the ugliness, but to enjoy and cherish everything that is beautiful.
Agree. Just wanted to note that I do not believe that something like a beautiful human being exists. Under this premise I find it legitimate and healthy to estimate the own self-worth among humans at least as equal. That was basically only linguistic nitpicking. 😅
@danimo@Sci_Fi_FanGirl@actuallyautistic@allautistics Ive realized recently that humans are self blaming a lot. Through ideas like: what we do is unnatural, our very own life is unnatural and of course we classify ourselves as outside nature
But imo the truth is more like what they say in War of the Worlds, we are not self sufficient we heavily rely on a lot of ecosystems we actually feel responsible for them, so imo we are 100% part of nature
@cecton The point is that our species is a plague to the planet. Esoteric considerations of whether humans see themselves inside or outside of nature have no relevance to this. We are as a biological unit simply an asshole club. Unfortunately, no change of the viewing angle helps here.
@danimo@Sci_Fi_FanGirl@actuallyautistic@allautistics it doesn't yeah but it does too: considering that you yourself are part of humanity and many others agree with your points means that at some point the forces will change direction
It's not an idealistic point of view either: it's very possible that we will be too slow to change and we end up destroying the entirety of nature. The way I see things is that we all are one big blob of a thing
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