A big part of being autistic for me is being very intentional with my word choices in order to say what I mean and mean what I say.
To follow that up I then start having a bunch of people claim I said something I absolutely did not because they chose to add additional meanings they made up themselves.
For example, I'm a bit direct and never mean anything else than the first meaning of what I said so I don't get it when people are mad. But on the other hand I always have the impression that everybody hates me or is mad at me and I'm over analyzing things
Usually I am quite self-conscious, tend to people-please a lot and feel embarrassed after nearly every social interaction. I hide my true self mostly because I'm afraid people will reject me.
Yesterday though, I suddenly had this thought that I'm maybe not that pathetic after all, but actually a beautiful human being and that I want to be me.
@danimo@Sci_Fi_FanGirl@actuallyautistic@allautistics Ive realized recently that humans are self blaming a lot. Through ideas like: what we do is unnatural, our very own life is unnatural and of course we classify ourselves as outside nature
But imo the truth is more like what they say in War of the Worlds, we are not self sufficient we heavily rely on a lot of ecosystems we actually feel responsible for them, so imo we are 100% part of nature
@danimo@Sci_Fi_FanGirl@actuallyautistic@allautistics it doesn't yeah but it does too: considering that you yourself are part of humanity and many others agree with your points means that at some point the forces will change direction
It's not an idealistic point of view either: it's very possible that we will be too slow to change and we end up destroying the entirety of nature. The way I see things is that we all are one big blob of a thing
