today I discovered the word autigender and my brain exploded. I saw how non binary went hand in hand with my dx and realization as autist. but today I saw how one is part of the other and intricately so.
thank you, people who organise useful gender words together.
@veroalgoz@actuallyautistic
yeah I like this term too. I spell it autgender, for phonetic reasons. But I do like to use it for my feelings about gender and in order to escape having to use a bunch of words that each only catch an aspect. Also because it ties it to the rest of me.
differentiating having sensory (over) load spoons, verbalization spoons or just having no spoons. a typical miserable dilema is when I feel I can't deal with talking or verbalising but still having energy and craving human contact (but most ppl get weirded out by "let's hang out and do something which doesnt involve verbalization").
I get frustrated when I try to explain this to others and I hear "oh I also need me time". it is not about being alone. it is the opposite. I want to see people, but talking is impossible. so I end up being alone and lonely.
@veroalgoz@actuallyautistic my late best friend understood this in a way I’ve only just begun to understand myself. We’d sit on his front porch watching the world go by, barely saying a word but having a profound connection.