It’s a good idea to do some introspection at times like this, and remember, you’re allowed to change your mind.
What about transitioning appeals to you? Is it being more comfortable about your body? Is it being perceived as the gender you identify as? What kinds of interventions do you need to achieve these goals?
What about transitioning are you worried about? Do you have supportive people in your life? Will you be safe if you transition? The idea isn’t to scare you, but to prepare you for some of the more difficult aspects of the process.
I would recommend talking to a therapist if you have access to someone with LGBTQ+ experience in your area. I know that’s not always something people can do, but it can really help you figure out what you need so you can plan your journey accordingly.
I hope this isn’t patronizing. I am happy to chat if you have any questions about the process. I’m essentially done transitioning (although I reserve the right to change my mind in the future!) and fairly knowledgeable about HRT and procedures. I hope whatever you decide you get to live a happy and healthy life 😊