Don’t want to invalidate people with actual mental health issues and neurodivergence, but I also have some sort of undiagnosed issues. Suck at socializing, have some sort of behavioral OCD. I remember how I fucked up my interview by blurting out the name of the company incorrectly cuz I was nervous. The co-founder was so furious, he left the video call.
I’ve wasted an entire year trying to create a developer portfolio, and the entire cycle is hilarious. I wanted to create one of those advanced interactive OpenGL site with the most modern technology, so I went with Svelte, Tailwind, Threlte and DaisyUI. Worked on the project last December, gave up during January, because I didn’t know shit about ThreeJS.
Tried again around March, was able to make a decent gradient mesh, but I didn’t know anything about managing scroll in 3d, managing resize with canvas and stuff, so I preserved the 3d part, removed the entire stuff done with DaisyUI, and tried creating a fullpage site. Failed miserably, because now, it was very hard trying to make it responsive, now that both the horizontal and vertical screen were fixed.
Removed all of that, came across a Svelte video that was in favour of making components, so I did that, and tried making one of those generic rolling text SaaS page like portfolio. At last, I was so overwhelmed with ThreeJS and Threlte, and also the component thingy, and since the site was making my shitty phone lag hard, so I removed the entire 3d work. Now the website looked so generic, I removed everything and used the most simplest style.
Alongside that, I was also working on bunch of other projects, but completed them halfway and gave up.
So this entire year, I wasted on creating a single project. The design part of my home page is complete, and I’m satisfied with how it looks. Now for the blog and portfolio section…