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Can anyone help me with two linked probs? I'm catch-22'd.
I'm stuck in a dissociative trauma response, and can't function in hated isolation. I can come down out of my head for intelligent conversation, sex, and life-threatening emergencies. Otherwise, I just loop unexpressed words. I've been mostly-to-totally isolated my whole life, and fully isolated for about the last ten years. Isolation is painful and makes the disassociation worse.
I'm broke. And old. Because of a lifetime disassociated, I've pretty well wrecked my body. I can't do body jobs any more, and have no idea how to go about getting a job anyway. I always got mine by knowing someone. It doesn't matter anyway--nobody wants a traumatized autist in their midst. I'd need to fix (1) before I could be employed.
I swear, there's gotta be a way to earn money making people laugh with language, but I'm not a performer. Any thoughts?
@poloniousmonk@actuallyautistic I'm sorry to hear that, it sounds really tough. I'm not sure if I have anything that can help, although I can probably talk about the job interview process at least here in the UK.
But it doesn't sound like you want a job exactly, more like you want connection. I wonder if something like an adult short course at a college or maybe events at a local library might help? At least they'd offer a shared intellectual experience with no initial social pressure?
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