I’m a little older and found my path to atheism earlier than atheist youtubers.
I remember absolutely hating Ayn Rand and thinking “Why would an atheist think the best thing is to be completely selfish and shit on community?” Then Richard Dawkins, who I had previously respected, started running his fucking mouth, and then Sam Harris came along and shat things up some more, and then came the edgy youtube atheists.
For fucks sake man, made me legit embarrassed to admit my atheism for a while.