stufromoz

18+ grissallia, 7 months ago to random

Some time around 2015 or so I had a horrifying experience where I was at work on a really windy day, and a branch was just banging on the wall outside all day.

The constant noise seemed to ratchet up my stress levels all day until I literally shut down. First I lost the ability to speak, then to even walk.

I stumbled out of my office, and the office manager called an ambulance, and I was hospitalised, but nothing was found. The doctors ultimately put it down to some kind of migraine, whereas I assumed it to be some kind of overstimulation thing.

However, it seems to be that since then, if I'm under too much stress, I start stuttering.

It's uncommon, and usually related to work stress, or occasionally emotional stress.

I can still (for the most part) think fluently, but attempting to speak results in a stutter, and I just have to wait it out.

The thing is, it doesn't seem to fit any categorisation I can find. It doesn't seem to fit selective mutism, and everything I can find about stuttering seems to indicate that when it starts it doesn't stop, whereas when the source of stress is removed, I'm usually OK within a few hours, or after a good night's sleep.

It's terribly embarrassing when it happens, but it's usually a sign that I need to relax, like, immediately.

It's never happened during a psychologist appointment.

Until today, when I apparently stepped on an emotional landmine. Towards the end of the session, I started talking about some deeply traumatic memories that unblocked last week... and my heart started pounding, and I started to lose my ability to speak, until nothing would come out except a stammer, unless I made a huge effort, and even then, it's incredibly slow.

I can still type though, so I grabbed my phone and typed out what was happening, and she was able to talk me through some exercises to get me talking (slowly), and safe enough to drive home, but we were over time by that point, so there wasn't time to explain beyond more than a brief "nervous system response to flashback" just WTF happened to me.

I don't understand it. Google isn't helping AT ALL, because nothing fits. I can think the words, but they won't come out when I try to speak, but eventually I'm OK again.

I've always just assumed it was stress-related "autism" thing, but now I don't know. I couldn't seem to find anything that seems to fit the experience, of a temporary stutter in that circumstance and I just want to know if other people have had this experience.

I'm guessing I've spent more than a hundred hours talking to psychologists over the years, and it's just never happened before.

weezmgk, 8 months ago to random

too fishy

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smperris, 9 months ago to random

Bay leaves are a fraud and we are all afraid to leave them out of recipes just because they have been in there for so long, despite nobody really knowing just what they add to the flavour profile, nor missing them when they forget to add them in.

This is my hill, and it is where I choose to make my final stand.