morothar

morothar, 10 months ago

@sebwhatever @actuallyautistic I read it shortly after finding out. Now, still in burnout and 6 months later, I want to re-read it. I found it useful, but I think I was "too early" in my journey and probably missed to many important points. I also skipped those exercises.

morothar, 10 months ago

@sebwhatever @actuallyautistic

Recently read (or am still reading) these books:

• Late-Identified AuDHD: A Starter Workbook (by B.Z. Brainz)
• Workplace NeuroDiversity Rising (by Lyric Rivera)
• Untypical: How the world isn’t built for autistic people and what we should all do about it (by Pete Wharmby)

morothar, 10 months ago

@sebwhatever @actuallyautistic I wish you the very best in your journey! My personal ride is currently very bumpy and not fun, but that doesn't mean yours will be.
(And for me personally it's totally worth it, there are already so many improvements happening.)

morothar, 10 months ago

@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic
I am in "long-term" autistic burnout. It is like a solar plane running out of energy. Recharging is not enough to keep the altitude and I slowly descent. Dipping through the clouds things got worse and I try to put everything into raising altitude again, fearing a crash if I throttle down to recharge. Now I keep touching the ground, mini-crashes are more and more frequent, I'm scared of the moment I stop for too long and lose any velocity to ever rise again.

morothar, 10 months ago

@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic
This plne has so many energy-draining things that need fixing, many still hidden from me. I know if I can fix enough of these things I will be able to soar again. But it is really hard to do these, especially so close to the ground... But I will make it!

morothar, 10 months ago (edited 10 months ago)

@theautisticcoach
a dear friend told me that what I described about recent struggles sounded a bit like autistic burnout. So I researched it and found out that my friend was right...

Edit: I forgot to say that this happened in January this year. (I'm 42)

@actuallyautistic

morothar, 10 months ago

@foo @actuallyautistic
How it is for me: I'll start writing a digital packing list usually a week before departure, depends a lot on the how long the holiday (or other type of trip) is going to be. I'll add to it whenever the ADHD thinks of something,
often half of my household ends on the list. Many reductions will happen. Packing stuff will take several attempts, my brain trying to both pack only the most necessary things but also be prepared for every possibility. (1/2)

morothar, 10 months ago (edited 10 months ago)

@JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic 90% of my brain power is busy with "reading the room", but most of the time allistics have terrible handwriting and it's illegible.

morothar, 10 months ago

@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic
Why is this so hard to internalize? 😔

morothar, 10 months ago (edited 10 months ago)

@TeacherGriff @edross @actuallyautistic This, unfortunately, makes a lot of sense...

morothar, 10 months ago

@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic
Mine are:
Game development,
Programming,
Virtual Reality
(yes, there's a beautiful connection between them)

(and a nsfw thing I'll omit here)

morothar, 10 months ago (edited 10 months ago)

@benjamincox @axnxcamr @Claire @PatternChaser @ScruffyDux @actuallyautistic
In my mind it means that you are probably so used to communicate with NTs and analyze each sentence and "read between the lines" automatically. I for one can have a hard time talking to NDs because I constantly phrase things for NTs and interprete everything like it came from NTs, learned automatic (masking) behavior. Even though it IS so much easier communicating with other NDs IF I know they are.

morothar, 10 months ago

@autism101 @actuallyautistic Finally got around doing this.
"Monotropism Score: 187 / 235
Average: 3.98

This score means that you are more Monotropic than about 32% of autistic people and about 92% of allistic people."