You’re not alone, I’ve started seriously questioning recently and it’s scary AF! I’m on the wait list for some counselling through my local LGBT center, it might be worth looking into whether that’s a possibility for you? I want it so I can have someone impartial help me sort through my thoughts and feelings. I’m currently NB and I’ve been slowly exploring being a little more feminine in attitude, but I’m balding and hairy AF so presenting femme doesn’t feel like an option.