Don’t feel bad because you’re really good at using a tool that doesn’t follow your values. I use Windows during the work week and I use Linux for gaming on the weekend where I literally can’t work even if I wanted to.
For me Windows is a tool box with propriatry tools that have no Linux compatibility. That’s OK for me. People get emotionally invested but that’s neither healthy nor helpful. No point being angry at work, it’s like being angry that your work uniform is made by one textiles vendor not the other.
You get to choose what you use at home in your own time. If you feel good using Linux then, do it!