“It is impossible to live in the past, difficult to live in the present and a waste to live in the future.” - from “Dune” by Frank Herbert
Howdy. 56 yo, here. I have ADHD, as well as dystymia. About two years ago, I had a pretty big spiritual awakening, and it’s really helped bring some of the things you mentioned into perspective for me.
*“How do y’all not just get consumed by how you will be gone one day, how one day no one in the world will even remember you.”*My grandparents have been gone a while. I haven’t forgotten them, the love they gave me, nor the wisdom and values they imparted to me. My high school chum Paul committed suicide while we were freshmen. I haven’t forgotten him, nor the time he stuck up for me on a high school road trip to Houston, TX (one of our fellow students wouldn’t stop smoking in the hotel room. I was having an asthma attack, so Paul clocked him with one of those souvenir foot long baseball bats you get at the games to get him to stop.)
It’s the little ways we impact people’s lives that matters. Our existence is impressed upon others in the time we share with them, not by Wikipedia pages, news articles, YouTube followers, etc. For me, my purpose is not stuff (though those Steam Decks do look pretty sweet), nor fame, nor even fortune. It’s about finally getting to a place in my life where I like myself, and extending that to those I come in contact with every day. And when the day comes when we finally shed this body, we’ll never really be gone, because we’ll have made a difference - no matter how big or small - to somebody somewhere in this world.
I wish you enlightenment, joy, and fulfillment. Now and always. 🙏 🕉️