So I want to just add my story to this as I’m currently going through this myself. At least I think I am. I am not diagnosed as of yet but I have an appointment to get things started towards that in a couple weeks. Going to share this anyways.
Anyways, I’m turning 43 this week and the past six months to a year have been super rough for me. I mean, I’ve always had issues but its gotten really bad. I almost got fired this past fall but for some reason my boss wanted to give me another chance. It all started going downhill when my coworker quit and I picked up the slack and took on more work. My boss pulled me aside and we had a meeting and she listed numerous issues she saw I was having. I had caused several minor accidents(i have to drive between accounts), major focus issues, she kept having to repeat herself constantly, running late and rushing and not giving myself enough time tondo mu work, interrupting her all the time, trouble remembering things(she writes stuff down for me now), skipping accounts, timecard mistakes constantly, just a whole cluster of wtf. My home life and marriage was suffering too but I won’t even start on those. All in all u was not having a good time.
I was just feeling awful about it and like I failure, my job is not hard at least it shouldnt be. I went home and started looking up specifically the problems I was having. Low and behold every single one kept coming up as adhd symptoms. I remember sitting there thinking to myself like wait what? And then started thinking about my past and it suddenly kinda made sense there too. so I did a bunch of reading.
At that point I found an article on menopause and adhd and that was enlightening. I realized that even though I’m still regular with my cycle and stuff it could be starting and would make sense why suddenly things are even more difficult. I got through the Xmas season okay, kinda put thst stuff out of my mind and focused on trying to not make a mess out of work but come January I dropped into a state of depression like I had never experienced before. Not even when I got kicked out of college i, not even when I was pretty much homeless and couch surfing at my friends. I have anxiety issues but I’m not normally depressed like that.
I was a zombie, I managed to get myself to work and back but that’s about it. I was just numb and yes I was at the point I wanted to end myself. After about a month of this I came to the realization that I needed help. I finally talked to my husband about it and I got clean off of any substances I was using at the time to try and cope. Started doing more reading and found this group and a menopause group. I have a doctors appointment in a couple weeks and I’m going to see what my options are and if they can give me a referral for testing. I also have an appointment with a gynecologist for the women’s stuff thst same week. I’m stressed but it will be good to know what is going on.
This got really long winded and I’m sorry about that. If you got through this thank you for reading. Hopefully I will have answers soon.