@sahat@joshsusser@actuallyautistic This is one of the hardest things for me to process. Having a fecking miserable life and then having a drastically reduced life expectancy. Going by pure math (and way things are going), I don't think I have too many years left. On one hand it's like "phew, not much longer to go..." but it's also immensely sad. Instead of providing people with good lives and good deaths, the world is hell bent on making everyone as miserable as possible in both. I wanna die happy, content, feeling I lived a good life. But it's just not gonna happen.