@joshsusser@actuallyautistic My first therapist was great, but then again, it was solution centered approach which by pure chance was a good fit for me. Me second stint was two years of psychodynamic and it was horrible, as you said, worse than actually doing nothing.
Yeah, we're meant to be part of communities and we used to be integral part of those communities, how we were wired was useful and how communities worked back then suited us too.
I think that's the hardest part right now for me, realizing that there's no going back, the decades have beaten so much out of me. So many burnouts already. Right now I can't get this one fricking thing taken care of, and I'm someone who used to tangle with bureaucracy on daily basis in some certain functions I was involved with.