@housepanther@actuallyautistic during an episode it's a lot worse in the daytime. it doesn't go away at night but during the day i can't get out of bed except to use the toilet and maybe get a glass of water or food. i've spent weeks staring at the ceiling until my sleep schedule shifted to where i was up at night. the apathy was still there but not as overwhelming so i'm able to do things like shower and leave the house and kind of take care of my basic needs.