Yeah, I like Apex because when you are in a fight it’s almost entirely down to your reflexes. Not just your physical reflexes but how quickly you can adapt creatively to your immediate environment and plan your tactics at a high speed. The addicting part is the lack of knowing for certain how and when you’ll be engaged and by who, then being good enough to get yourself out when it does happen.
I don’t always like to hot drop, but when you do it can be a lot of fun as everyone scrambles for the supplies and then your team comes out on top despite having to bite and scratch your way through opponents with basically a spoon you found.
I don’t know if it’s due to having some undiagnosed adhd or something, but I find that state of flying by the seat of your pants to be kind of soothing, almost therapeutic.