TL:DR A grey day, with brief flashes of sunlight; New friends on the horizon, replacing those that fail the test of humanity; I go to bed not knowing if I want to awaken. SAD + PDD + ASD = MEH
Today has been such a grey day in all respects, although a tiny chink of light shone thru about tea time.
This morning started with worries about one woman & her dog, forming a stronger than average bond with a friend to make them a Bestie has a price to pay - the price of caring! I’m really not a dog person, but there is a certain chocolate Labrador that has snuck in under the radar! .
Then it rained , & rained & just for a bit of variety it rained ! I’m not saying it was wet, but the Koi in the pond was putting up a brolly last time I saw him !
Mrs Squirrel was working from home so the peace of the house was regularly broken as she wondered past in her own little world.
One of the things I have noticed is that talking about triggering events usually involves having to involve a certain other member of the household, & it just seems like childish tale-telling. Which is frustrating & a trigger in itself ! It’s a catch 22 situation seemingly!
There was some light relief mid morning thru mid afternoon as I chatted with Peeps on here, & had a laugh.😊
I tried to play Fallout 4, but couldn’t concentrate & ultimately fell asleep for an hour.
I caught up with my best friend as she made ready to go to bed, she & yon Lab are a lot better which was a relief.
We had pizza for tea, but ,with Project WOOF at the forefront of my mind ,it lacked that certain je ne sais qui.
The high point of the day was getting an email regarding some pre-assessment forms & interviews , bringing a formal diagnosis that bit closer.
As part of this I need to get my Dad to fill out a questionnaire so a Paternal visit is on the immediate horizon.
I am fascinated though that a professional MH Social Health worker of my acquaintance seems to know nearly nothing about autism , I’ve read ½ a book on the subject & it appears I know much more than them !? That said in the past the self same person has claimed not to know any psychiatrists. I do wonder if this is not a ploy to avoid getting involved.
Had a brief chat with someone I’m newly sharing a TL with , we seem to be cut from similar circuit boards and I hope he can cope with my sense of humour & general weirdness !😊
On the flip side someone I share a TL made a really nasty joke at the expense of another Peep, I rarely block people, but I will not tolerate outright trolling of one of my Peeps. There is enough hatred out in the world in general without having to have it splashed on my TL.
SAD is kicking big time tonight, in an extremely ‘MEH’ mood, I’m going to bed when I publish this , there is too much world & too many people in it for me to engage with tonight 😔
Final Thoughts:
I hate late Autumn/Winter, it’s dark, grey , cold & horrible ! I think I’m totally channeling Marvin the Paranoid Android tonight .
My world seemed in chaos today, one moment a high, the next a deep low. I am struggling to make sense of it all , and at the heart of everything a storm is brewing that may drown me or give me a new lease of life, only time will tell.
My TL;DR seems grim, but I will be back tomorrow , likely a lot more my Squirrelly self ,so don’t worry. 🤗🥰
Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 😊🫶🐿️🖖
@Tim_McTuffty
Owwww thanks for all the caring for Arwen and me! We really appreciate it and your sweet support. Her hotspot looked a lot better this morning, so when I can wash it after the gym I'll be able to share a real pupdate. And she is sooooo sweet, so she definitely loves that you love her as well 💜🐾💜.
Owww sas sucks! I know too much about it and I always get hit during the wetter and colder times as well. I try to watch favorite series and movies, listen to music that makes me feel good and I try to keep in touch with friends that care and understand. But reaching out is always harder for me... Maybe you can find a PS+ game on the service that's totally silly and enjoy that for laughs? (reasons I played Peppa Pig and Paw Patrol 😂).
Sorry about Mrs Squirrel. My hex always was very interested but unfortunately she used her knowledge to trigger me when she could, to make me feel guilty so I'd do things or to show others how bad it was to be with me. So that's the other side of it I guess, when your partner doesn't seem to wanna be there for you as you may need them to be 😔...
Yay for the assessment! Hopefully your dad will wanna cooperate with you. It's so fast! So awesome! Hope you can get some of the answers you need and have been looking for. I'm almost always available to chat about it, should you want to. 😊
Owww I didn't know much about ASD before and I still don't know loads about it. But it's a bit surprising that a MH worker should not know at least the basics of it all? 🤔 Maybe they went to a different expertise area?
Sensing biiiiiig hugs 🤗 from me and wet sloppy kisses from Arwen 🐾
Hope you're sleeping safe and sound now and that you will wanna wake up again to make Tuesday better than the Monday was. 🫶🏻🐿️
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