@AutisticAdam@actuallyautistic I can't speak to the autism part of this (though some in the community say I am so there's that) BUT!
I got very ill when I was a kid and as soon as I aged out of my (very bad) healthcare system of my country there was basically nothing. No one could/would help so basically yeah. You are but this means you have the ultimate freedom to do whatever it is you need to do to take care of you.
They already don't care about you so you might as well go for broke.