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hosford42

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#MachineLearning engineer. #NLU enthusiast. #AutisticZebra (#autism & #EhlersDanlos). Guitarist, singer, songwriter. Rude-sounding kind person. (he/they)

https://hosford42.github.io/

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BZBrainz, to audhd
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@Adhdinos @audhd
“I had zoomies."

"You can't say that. That's language they use to describe hyperactive dogs."

"I'm unbothered. I'm using it to describe myself as an intermittently hyperactive person."

hosford42,
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@BZBrainz @Adhdinos @audhd Awesome! Take ownership of the language!

eo, to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic #ActuallyAutistic

what are some of the most common, or most bothersome, false assumptions people make about you?

Don't limit yourself to neurodiversity or any other topic.

hosford42,
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@ashleyspencer @eo @actuallyautistic I get the stuck up thing, too. I just wait until I have a good grasp of the conversational preferences of people around me before I feel comfortable interacting, because otherwise it will go badly.

theautisticcoach, to actuallyautistic
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Anakin was and driven to Meltdowns & Shutdowns by the NT Jedi Order and driven to Burnout by Palpatine, capitalizing on his weakened nervous system.

Saved when in the end he could understand his own needs and begin to unmask. It was too much for him though.

@actuallyautistic

hosford42,
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@MishaVanMollusq @theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic It does bother me a bit, being compared to a supervillain who terrorized a whole galaxy as the leader of a group that was modeled on the Nazis. I'm glad it's a fictional character who turns good at the end, at least.

hosford42,
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@Susan60 @MishaVanMollusq @theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic Yeah, my concern is more with people getting the wrong idea about us from one example, which is a thing I see a lot.

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@Susan60 @MishaVanMollusq @theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic We could all do better by keeping this in mind!

hosford42,
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@theautisticcoach @MishaVanMollusq @actuallyautistic Hey, sorry if I upset you or crossed a line somehow. I'm not trying to be critical of your post or anything; it's just not a comparison I would make myself, mainly because I always saw a similarity between the Empire and the Nazis since I was a kid. I realize that's probably not a connection everyone makes, and I can see where you were coming from regardless.

I know that you're going through a difficult time right now with the stuff going on in Gaza, and the rampant antisemitism that you've mentioned in other posts. I probably should have just held my tongue. I'm sorry for bringing that up in your mentions.

hosford42,
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@theautisticcoach @MishaVanMollusq @actuallyautistic Also, you should know that I appreciate the efforts you make here on behalf of the autistic community.

VeryBadLlama, to random
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"young people can't buy homes because they'd rather buy big fancy TVs"

I am begging older generations to understand that televisions have gone from "a thing that costs 4 months' salary" to "a thing you get for free when your roommate moves and can't be bothered to take it"

hosford42,
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@thepoliticalcat @VeryBadLlama But who would buy it, and for how much?

I'm able to afford my very cheap house in an area with a low cost of living because I have a remote, high-paying technical job in a high cost of living area and I don't have to commute. We are very fortunate, and yet we still scrape to make it work. I dread the thought of where we would be if we hadn't been so fortunate.

The cost of living has gone up, but the wages have not. Wealth inequality is at an extreme, worse than it was even leading up to the great depression. People are hurting, and it's not because of cheap sources of leisure that help them forget that pain for a moment. Selling the TV you were left for $100, if you can even find a buyer, and then staring miserably at the walls instead won't make a home affordable, because it's a one-time sum and is a tiny drop next to the hundreds of thousands that a home costs.

Tim_McTuffty, to actuallyautistic
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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 16 Tuesday 14/11/23

TL:DR Sometimes life is good 😊

Today I have completed 56 circuits of the sun! Thats a flipping long way to walk I’m telling you ! 😜

It’s been a really good day, spoken with family on the phone , been out to lunch with Mrs Squirrel, chatted with friends on Mastodon!

Got some nice presents , including some squirrel themed ones, everyone loves da squirrel , including it seems Mrs Squirrel 😂

I wanted to catch up with a really close friend this afternoon , sadly that didn’t happen. I hope that I will catch up with them tomorrow !

Thanks to all my friends on here & all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 😊🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

hosford42,
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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic Happy birthday!

@NefariousAryq That makes 3 of us!

spika, to actuallyautistic
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I saw a post on another social network that felt a little aggressive about people needing to learn to use tone tags (to which most of the replies were people who had never encountered a tone tag), and I found myself wondering... Do folks find this useful?

Honestly, I have a hard time remembering what they all mean much less use them as an indicator of what tone I should be applying to what I'm reading or writing.

@actuallyautistic

hosford42,
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@spika @actuallyautistic I think /s is tremendously helpful. The rest, not so much. As you already mentioned, I have a hard time remembering them all, so it ends up being more confusing, not less. But sarcasm in particular is helpful because it's like a negative sign for an entire statement or post, which is by far the biggest change in interpretation that it's possible to make about someone's intent without changing the wording.

hosford42,
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@nddev @spika @actuallyautistic I never q
would have guessed it meant that. But yeah, I could add it to my profile as well, if I thought it would serve its communicational goal.

ergifruit, to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic #actuallyautistic anyone else do this? i have trouble identifying my own emotions and pain, like where the pain is (one space or joint vs limb or whole body pain) or what enotion specifically i'm feeling besides positive/negative (and sometimes not even that). but when i smoke cannabis, i have a far easier time pinpointing this kinda stuff. none of my autistic friends smoke, so i can't really ask them 😅

hosford42,
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@ergifruit @actuallyautistic I smoked in college. It made it much, much worse for me. I would suddenly realize that the awful body feeling I'd been experiencing for the last hour was because I was slouching so badly that I was having trouble breathing.

hosford42, to actuallyautistic
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I'm interested to get my fellow folks' takes on this.

Neuroscience News: Is Inflammation in Childhood A Mechanistic Link to Neurodevelopmental Disorders?
https://neurosciencenews.com/neurodevelopment-inflammation-24941/

@actuallyautistic
@neurodivergence

hosford42,
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@null_hypothesis @actuallyautistic @neurodivergence I was surprised to learn that there are a lot of genes that increase the probability of both autism and schizophrenia. It always seemed like they were 180° opposites to me, despite the 60's psych tropes you mentioned.

hosford42,
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@GreenRoc @Susan60 @actuallyautistic @neurodivergence Einstein! I was fascinated to learn that he didn't walk or talk till he was 3, like my brother (who is undiagnosed but likely autistic like me). The refusal to learn to drive, wearing the same outfit every day, lack of attention to personal appearances, digestive issues, trouble with relationships... There is so much to suggest that he was one of us. And he changed the world in many ways, both positive and negative, with his profound insights.

Another, less famous name also comes to mind, as an example of a different type of neurodivergence: Godel. I'm pretty sure he was paranoid schizophrenic, based on his life story. And he fundamentally changed the way we understand mathematics, indirectly contributing to computability theory as well.

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@Susan60 @GreenRoc @actuallyautistic @neurodivergence That was nagging at me when I wrote my reply earlier. All these famous (probably) autistic men, but where are the role models for autistic women? Hidden, forgotten, just because they didn't have the "right" physical gear. But they existed, without a doubt, even if we aren't allowed to know who they were.

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@26pglt @sahat @actuallyautistic @neurodivergence Well said, and I relate to this strongly. Even after the differences are identified, the gaslighting and trauma go on. My needs are regularly dismissed without further consideration by both strangers and people close to me, because they don't align with how other people feel about things.

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@26pglt @null_hypothesis @actuallyautistic @neurodivergence I wouldn't be surprised if a lot of the genes they identify that are correlated with multiple kinds of neurodivergence are in fact genes which modulate neurotypicality in some way. They always look at neurotypicality as the default setting, as if that is how the system is supposed to work and neurodivergences are failure modes. But I think there are multiple ways the system is supposed to work (evolutionarily speaking). If they put them on equal footing in their research, they'll learn a lot more about all of them, because their assumptions won't mask patterns that don't match them anymore.

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@CynAq @GreenRoc @Susan60 @actuallyautistic @neurodivergence I've heard the flunking math one was myth, too.

hosford42,
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@isomeme @Susan60 @GreenRoc @actuallyautistic @neurodivergence Ada Lovelace was so awesome we have a programming language named after her. :D

hosford42,
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@copsewood @actuallyautistic @neurodivergence It could be that autism benefits the tribe, when present at an appropriate frequency within the population. Who is to say that evolution hasn't tapped into something simple like inflammation levels to regulate this frequency at a level close to what is ideal to maximize the benefit?

hosford42,
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@Susan60 @actuallyautistic @neurodivergence Yay! That's why I posted it. I'm glad I did. The research is bunk. But all these opinions and insights from my fellow autistics in response is golden. :D

dbellingradt, to histodons German
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Here is a new thread for friends of , , and the community.
@histodons

On the painting with the title "The Alchemist" from the Flemish Mattheus van Helmont, circa mid seventeenth century, are many uses and abuses of paper products reflected in the details. I will address 7 of these paper issues in the thread. Bonus for friends: a large écorché figure, a distillation apparatus over a fire, and metal working assistants.
Enjoy.

1/x

hosford42,
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@Tinido @dbellingradt @histodons

[looks at his desk] Apparently I would have been an alchemist had I been born a few centuries sooner.

ScruffyDux, to actuallyautistic
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At rest, the average body consumes 20% to 25% of the body's energy. That equates to 350 to 450 calories for the average person. The energy comes mainly from glucose.

https://www.livescience.com/burn-calories-brain.html

brains create 42% more information at rest.

https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2014/01/140131130630.htm

This could equate to 497 to 639 calories just to power our resting brain, let alone when we're hyperfocused or overstimulated.

Gee, why do we all crave simple, quickly digested, glucose rich foods? Mystery.

@actuallyautistic

hosford42,
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@ecsd @AKMA @ScruffyDux @actuallyautistic Oh, cool! It's not open source, is it?

hosford42,
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@ecsd @AKMA @ScruffyDux @actuallyautistic Lisp is a little different. Very similar, though, I'll grant you.

hosford42, to autisticadvocacy
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I'd like to buy an shirt -- something to represent that part of my identity when I'm in public places -- but I want to support autistic creators instead of Amazon. Where are good places to look?

@neurodivergence
@actuallyautistic
@autisticadvocacy
@autistic[email protected]



hosford42,
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@neurodivergence @actuallyautistic @autisticadvocacy @autistic[email protected] Self-promotions are welcome. (Forgot my audience. lol)

hosford42,
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@infiniteminimal @samiam @neurodivergence @actuallyautistic @autisticadvocacy @autistic[email protected] I added that it's welcome since you asked. Thanks!

hosford42,
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@infiniteminimal @samiam @neurodivergence @actuallyautistic @autisticadvocacy @autistic[email protected] And pasting it here so I can bookmark it. :)

https://infiniteminimal.teemill.com/

hosford42, to adhd
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The single best way to support neurodivergent people, in the workplace and in life, is to educate yourself about the different forms of neurodivergence.

Learn about the needs, strengths, weaknesses, tendencies, perspectives, and, most importantly, lived experiences of neurodivergent people.

The right way to do this is to listen to neurodivergent people. Follow us on social media. Read our blogs. Get to know us IRL. If you aren't listening to us, you aren't learning about us; you are only learning other people's opinions about us.

As with any minority group, learning about neurodivergent people will force you to reassess many assumptions about people and society that you don't even realize you hold. You will grow as a person. And that is exactly what we need from you.

@neurodivergence
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@autisticadvocacy
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dbellingradt, to histodons German
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This painting by Peter Cramer is rich in detail, dear - peppercakes, street selling activities in an early modern European urban setting, broadsheets glued to a wall, etc.

But what on earth is the highlighted child transporting on its shoulders? A wooden box full of what? Your help is appreciated! @histodons

hosford42,
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@dbellingradt @histodons Wow, backpacks were awkward back then!

JeremyMallin, to actuallyautistic
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I had a realization about my #SensoryIssues last night…

None of my #AuditoryTriggers exist in nature. They are all 100% caused by human technology.

🤔

Yet another reason for my biophilia?

@actuallyautistic
#ActuallyAutistic

hosford42,
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@JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic I have 1 exception: I can't handle birds outside my window sometimes when I'm sleep deprived.

hosford42,
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@neversosimple @JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic I have multiple neighbors that do this. And my ear defenders don't block it out.

hosford42, to neuroscience
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This is intriguing. I struggle with both sleep quality and memory. I'll definitely be doing some further reading about the .

Neuroscience News: Brain's Blue Spot, Locus Coeruleus, Is A Key Player in Sleep Quality and Memory
https://neurosciencenews.com/locus-coeruleus-memory-sleep-23965/

@neuroscience

hosford42,
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@neuroscience Oh, and the first thing that pops up in my search is a Wikipedia quote mentioning that it's involved in physiological responses to stress and panic -- immediately tying in another broad category of symptoms I experience, being diagnosed with .

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@neuroscience Norepinephrine modulation is apparently implicated in ADHD, too.

It's like a who's who of all my old friends.

yourautisticlife, to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic

I've posted my opinion about the new hashtags, in the following article. I've prevented commenting directly on that article, because unfortunately the ActivityPub plugin makes a mess of it, when you have replies to replies.

(Actually... I'm not sure whether the plugin will prevent people from commenting in the fediverse... oh well.)

https://www.yourautisticlife.com/2023/09/15/actuallyautistic-is-for-both-formally-diagnosed-people-and-self-diagnosed-people/

hosford42,
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@ratcatcher @dave @ScottSoCal @yourautisticlife @actuallyautistic Damn autistic verbosity! ;)

ratcatcher, to random
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For anyone having issues with the hashtag, there is also and @allautistics (the latter being a recently created group that you can follow and post to).

They are intended for anyone who is (or thinks they might be) autistic (formally or self-diagnosed).

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@Gtmlosangeles @hauchvonstaub @FrightenedRat @ratcatcher @allautistics @actuallyautistic This is the best alternative, IMO. I probably won't switch to using it suddenly, since there are a lot of people who won't know to look there just yet. But I'm going to start adding it alongside until gains more adoption.

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@CynAq @FrightenedRat @allautistics @actuallyautistic

Agreed, is specifically for people (whether medically or self-diagnosed) and that's an important function to make sure our voices are heard. But I do think that accomplishes that, as well. The only thing stopping me from immediately switching is the name recognition of . I'm going to start using both, as well, with a long term goal of making the switch fully.

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@CynAq @FrightenedRat @allautistics @actuallyautistic Question: How do you go about creating a group on @a[email protected]? I'd like to make one for .

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@CynAq @FrightenedRat @allautistics @actuallyautistic

Huh, it would seem you can just start using it, and it gets created. About to find that out with this post.

What do my fellow autistic folks think of @autistic[email protected]?

hosford42,
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@CynAq @FrightenedRat @allautistics @actuallyautistic @autistic[email protected] And it worked!

hosford42,
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@dpnash @CynAq @FrightenedRat @allautistics @actuallyautistic Yes, that's where I picked it up from. But the gate-keeping against self-diagnosed people was a very real problem there. I was self-diagnosed for 13 years before getting my medical diagnosis, and there were a number of very heated "conversations" on Twitter during that time that made me feel pretty unwelcome. So I'm very much on board for resolving that issue for newer members of our community.

hosford42,
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@Aerliss @marytzu @dpnash @CynAq @FrightenedRat @allautistics @actuallyautistic We do have to fix attitudes if we want to really solve the problem. But we can at least choose hashtags that don't exacerbate the problem.

hosford42,
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@yourautisticlife @Aerliss @marytzu @dpnash @CynAq @FrightenedRat @allautistics @actuallyautistic Don't petition them. That would be weird and pushy. But don't resist change just on the basis of the current status quo, either. If the tag is better, it will catch on eventually. In the meantime, it's fine to use both or whichever suits you personally.

As for the gatekeepers: I've dealt with people who think self-dx isn't valid. Correcting them about who the hashtag is for won't be quick. In fact, it won't be at all. The only thing we have control over when it comes to that type of person is how easily the hashtag or other words we are using can be manipulated to mean something unintended.

18+ ratcatcher, to actuallyautistic
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@sal

OK, I'm a little reluctant to do this, but as you have shared my comment without context, this is what your post was in response to:

"@sal Well, I do seem to have rattled your cage.

I take no great pleasure from that.

I would reiterate that this has nothing to do with ableism or the pros and cons of mask wearing.

Rather it is about you focusing your hatred on one individual to the extent that you follow him around the fediverse harassing, persecuting and bad-mouthing him. That is not acceptable.

Realistically, I did not anticipate a positive reaction from you. But I have held back for a long time and felt it was time to say something.

In all likelihood I will now become the object of your hatred. I thought about that before I posted and decided I didn't care. I will read your posts until I get tired of them, then I will block you.

I really hope you get the help you need."

I have attached a screenshot showing some of the responses from Sal.

@actuallyautistic @ratcatcher @ellenor2000

hosford42,
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@ratcatcher @sal @actuallyautistic @ratcatcher @ellenor2000 @sal I recommend others block and report, as well. Our community has zero room for death threats and suicide suggestions. We are already more vulnerable to suicide than other groups to start with, without people saying things like this to us.

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@Thumptastic @ratcatcher @actuallyautistic @ratcatcher @ellenor2000 @sal Apparently there are multiple similarly-named domains this person has active accounts on.

hosford42,
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@Thumptastic @ratcatcher @actuallyautistic @ratcatcher @ellenor2000 @worm.pink and @brain.worm.pink.

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